Forcast: Rain
Hardest Part of ne entry is figuring out where to start. well. yesterday was the superbowl. we had the party at my house cause mom made ribz and mac and chesse and brownies. it rocked. the game was pretty boring. i had a bit on my mind while i was trying to watch it. the fact my grandpa had died 2 hrs before that wasnt helpful and i wanted to ask kat to prom. so i procrastinate the whole asking thing to the end just to have ur bolt out the door barely saying goodbye. so i get on my shitty phone and send her a text like 8 times cause i coodnt get ne service. i hate my phone its lost or broken. POS. so after no response i went up on aim. basically the convo went like this. yo hi blah blah blah wanna go to prom with me...away message....blah blah blah wanna go to prom with me rather not y idn thats a sucky reason hard 2 explain try? no resonse ok thanx for nothing bye. so basically i felt like shit as i went to bed last night. today and school i got to tell all of my teachers and friends i wasnt going to be in school this week cause we r flying out to oregon to c family i dont no to say goodbye to a complete stranger that happens to b my dads dad. i dont feel so much as sad, well maybe for my dad i no he feels bad that he was a fuck up of a dad and grandpa, and angry that he didnt wanna b part of our lives. how hard is a card? so im not looking forward to this trip at all. when i get back im gunna have HW to not do over vaca. lame. lets try to switch to good thots for a sec. i sat with kristen at free today helping her with bio hw and somehow we r going to prom together. im excited. wow also looks to be looking up. ok now back to the depressed part FFFFFUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKK
sam
sam