oh my god, she makes me so angry
OK i'm so fricken tired of people who say that they are your best friend and that they hope you never leave them, then go and blow you and the others off to go and hang out with thier boyfriend. Now i love her to death but why is it that she cannot do anything with us on school nights and weekends, and anytime that we want to hang out, but everytime he wants to do something it is alright. So we were supposed to celebrate my getting into college. Now if HE had called and asked her to come out she would have put on some regular clothes stopped doing her homework and gone out. But since it was just me, getting into a college i had been nervous about getting into, and i everyone else had come out in thier sweatpants and sweatshirts to play games and celebrate with me she cant. She's too comfy?!? And she's to busy to do anything (even her excuse for not getting high honors) while julie and I doing "nothing" all day except study, but yet she finds the time to go out everynight. Then complains that she was up late doing homework, or that she didn't get to study. I really don't want to hear about it anymore, Julie and i have tried to help her but it's too far gone. Brittany has time for her friends and her boyfriend. She makes time to hang out with both. Do you know when the last time i hung out with her is?!? Halloween. And she spent the whole night outside not talking to me. No offense to britt because she is a wonderful person but i have not hung out with my "best friend" in a month because she has a new best friend. and she tells people that i do nothing but study so thats why i get good grades and thats why i got into college. Well you know what. Fuck it. I give up . I don't work hard, i don't run a two clubs, go to mathleague, and have 20+ hours of work each week, and maintain incredibly impressive grades. Fine. I'm a liar and i do nothing all day but go home and study, while she goes out and does community service, joins clubs, works 20+ hours a week, and that is why her grades are slipping. I also don't want to here about how i "only" have ap calculus ot worry about because she has ap euro, but her grade was hire in that class than mine was in calc. So don't give me that when she only works 1 day a week, and up until last week only did cross country after school for an hour. (Definatly not knocking her effort on that because i can't run, but don't tell me that is what is keeping her grades down.) She is an amazing person with an amazing heart but definatly don't tell me that i don't work for what i have. I put more into my studies and that is why i have better grades. I try hard at everything i do, and just because she happens to have different priorities than me does not mean that i should look like i don't put my all into everything else i do. I put everything (really wish i knew how to high light right now) into the csc, work, friends, and school. It is physically and emotionally draining and i don't want credit for everything i do i just don't want to be told that i do nothing. So there. I'm done now it's 11:21 and i must get up in the morning. goodnight and good bye