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Today I was having a discussion with my mother, like usual...
And it ends up a rant about alot of shit I hate, and she goes..
"I think you have died inside"
Partially true!
I think that's what's wrong with me...
It's sick how depressed and angry I have become...so bitter all the time.
I just sit at home waiting for nothing I guess...
getting chubbier..more hatefull..etc etc.
I try jogging often to keep from gaining more weight, but I just get so unmotivated and careless at times
to even get off my ass and do something about it.
I get really sad when I think about this..and remember how happy I was just a year ago..
I hate this city, myself and almost everything else.
I want to go to Dallas and see Gavin, I miss Gavin.
He's one of the few people who actually understand my emotions and mood swings, and puts up with me.And that's another thing. There are maybe 3 people in my life...aside my family that I care about.
I need more special people in my life..I'm fucking lonley as fuck.
ehhh I'm done
And it ends up a rant about alot of shit I hate, and she goes..
"I think you have died inside"
Partially true!
I think that's what's wrong with me...
It's sick how depressed and angry I have become...so bitter all the time.
I just sit at home waiting for nothing I guess...
getting chubbier..more hatefull..etc etc.
I try jogging often to keep from gaining more weight, but I just get so unmotivated and careless at times
to even get off my ass and do something about it.
I get really sad when I think about this..and remember how happy I was just a year ago..
I hate this city, myself and almost everything else.
I want to go to Dallas and see Gavin, I miss Gavin.
He's one of the few people who actually understand my emotions and mood swings, and puts up with me.And that's another thing. There are maybe 3 people in my life...aside my family that I care about.
I need more special people in my life..I'm fucking lonley as fuck.
ehhh I'm done