The New Year To Come
Happy New Years Eve.....2005
Well today, me and kelly dont have for sure plans but i think we might have people over for the new year.. hopefully it will be fun! i need some fun! last night i had a reality cheack. a really big one!! i need to discover who i am before i can even attempt to start a relationship with someone else.. the thing is, i've never really knew what i wanted out of life and now i'm starting to discover that you dont always need a guy to be around.. you can do it by yourself. Yes guys are nice to have but sometimes i need to be alone, even if it hurts like hell to discover who i really am and what i want outta life. i mean i'm only 15, i dont need all this drama.. i need to find myself and the new year can hopfully bring a new beginning..My heart is still broken. and its stupid of me for still missing him. i need to get over the fact that people dont allways come back. and the words i love you dont allways bring happiness. I'm still in love even tho he may have moved on, i cant seem to do the same. but i will! thats a promise.. the new year i think will bring me happiness and i pray that my family can get through the new year.. if you guys dont know everyone that works at Dana is goin to loose their job in August....I pray for those people. be strong you can get through it!! and for my best friend... i'm sorrie that i hurt you... in my heart you will allways be my best buddie
Well enough of this sad stuff, lets get to the fun stuff!! ITS GUNNA BE 2005... yes!!! goin to kellys to watch flippin Napoleon Dynamite...and Resident Evil!! Yes!! fun movies. and i'm wearing my new Jump Suit!! its yellow and its all.... CUTE...i've been listening to The Used and it makes me feel better!! theres a line that they sing... it goes something like this "All those feelings, those yeturday feelings will all be lost in time, but today i'm wasted away for today is on my mind." Yes!!!! well i love you all! and i hope you have a very safe and fun New Year!!!!!!2005 Baby!!!Heck yes it is!!!! had to throw in a line from napoleon!!!Bye