Feeling better
Sorry its long ....you dont have to read it if you dont want to. i just needed some place to vent my feelings.
So i have come to the conclusion that, I AM THE PROBLEM. im the one who has been feeling weird, and for some reason i felt that it was everyone else. i havent been the happiest person lately. I have been tring to hide it from everyone, including myself. but i decided today that i cant hide it anymore, i need to try to figure out what is wrong with me. the longer i take than the more upset i will get and the more depressed that will make me. But I have no reason to be so sad all of the time. I mean i have the GREATEST boyfriend in the ENTIRE world. but im just not happy. im not happy with myself as a human being, as a person. I just wish it would all go away. i just dont know what to do anymore.
I dont have any time to just take a break and get away from everything. Plus my mother would never have it. in order for me to get better, i need to get rid of my stressers. school is one of them and she would freak out if i told her i needed to stay home for a day or two to get things straightend out in my head. ill just try to do it when im not at school or at work or running around getting things done for christmas.
And to those who i have hurt because of the way i have felt. I AM SORRY!
Lindsay your the only one who understands what im going through. thank you for letting me come to you with all of my problems. you're a great friend and i love you lots.