chpt 1 "who knows"
I never really wanted a journal as a kid. well I did but I didn't want to write it down. I think thats why I'm always taking pictures. So I don't have to remember and record everything. The picture will help it re play in my mind. I'm pretty good with dates and years. I can remember most of the things that happened when I was young. But none of these memories are helping me today.
I don't know if I'm ever not depressed. I can't really tell be cause the lines between one day and the next are so blurred. When I was younger I imagined someone finding a paper or journal I wrote in and thinking it was amazing and needed to be put into a book. Thats why I started this online journal. I figured ti would make it easier for people to find me and think that my work is amazing.
I should have gone into journalism more. I want to right poems and sonnets that people would love to read over and over again. I doubt any of this will ever happen. I still try and imagine what my life will be when I grow up. Nothing ever jumps out at me as something interesting. Even though I want to travel around the world idk how. I don't think it will ever happen.
Who really knows what their suppose to be. Many people try over and over again till their old trying to figure out what their going to do. Maybe every one else is just settling because nothing better came around and they don't have the time to look. The only thing I know I want to do is have kids before I'm thirty. Nothing else has ever really mattered to me.
...............................................who can help me fix this problem if I can't fix it myself?
I don't know if I'm ever not depressed. I can't really tell be cause the lines between one day and the next are so blurred. When I was younger I imagined someone finding a paper or journal I wrote in and thinking it was amazing and needed to be put into a book. Thats why I started this online journal. I figured ti would make it easier for people to find me and think that my work is amazing.
I should have gone into journalism more. I want to right poems and sonnets that people would love to read over and over again. I doubt any of this will ever happen. I still try and imagine what my life will be when I grow up. Nothing ever jumps out at me as something interesting. Even though I want to travel around the world idk how. I don't think it will ever happen.
Who really knows what their suppose to be. Many people try over and over again till their old trying to figure out what their going to do. Maybe every one else is just settling because nothing better came around and they don't have the time to look. The only thing I know I want to do is have kids before I'm thirty. Nothing else has ever really mattered to me.
...............................................who can help me fix this problem if I can't fix it myself?