Oct 08, 2003 19:17
I must have pissed off god really bad for all this as my punishment.
Im seriously sick of the alcholic people in my family, all they do is fucking drink drink and drink, its fucking sick as hell, and my mom always have to smoke her fucking ciggs. Im getting sick of paying for EVERYTHING, and when I say EVERYTHING I damn well mean it, school supplies, lunch, any food, if I don't pay for food that means something other than ciggerettes and beer was purchased. I seriously cannot stand my drunken uncle, hes such a fucking pervert, and my mom is against me for his bs. Okay he thinks he can get hugs and kisses from me, and I said "NO" and he got mad, oh well. And now hes going to start pinching my stomach? WHAT A FUCKING PERVERT, goddamet I hate this fucking family, I honestly do not know how I made it this far in my life, I don't. All the shit that I have gone through that many yet don't know about.
I cannot save money for a car because I have to buy my own food and clothes and EVERYTHING! So therefore, no car for me. I seriously need another fucking job, to get out of this shitty house, its fucking ghetto. its sickening. I hate it to pieces. I want to be gone out of here, and to somewhere else.
Other than that I guess my life can result as okay, I got my friends still. thats whats holding me together in one piece and alive. I just cannot belive that my mom got mad at me because I told my uncle that I would backhand him if he touched me again. Im serious, I was about to when he did, fucking pervert. I don't know what to do anymore, I've run out of ideas. No one will take me in their home or anything, and my dad is always bowling to get away from this hell hole so its not like I can talk to him.
for sure, I need another job.
:'( sick and sad I have to raise myself, by myself.