first entry.
name:secludedsam.
location:Las Vegas, Nevada.
mood:on the inside looking out.
so im in the kitchen.
on my aunts laptop.
i dunno.
ive been feeling like i need to vent.
so i decided to make up one of these.
tomorrow is the big day.
my mom and her ex husband(aka my bio. dad) are going to court.
my dumbass dad is trying to get custody.
is he retarded?
i mean, i havent given him ANY indications that i would ever want to see his stupid face again...
and now hes trying to turn me against my mom.
its disgusting.
i hate him.
but if he tries his normal shit again, like taking my sister and i to cps, im gonna blast him and he will be so sorry he ever even bothered with us.
im going to get him so bad.
oh.
his face will be OWNED all over the place.
i hope he does.
i just found out something crazier than crazy.
my grandpa is crazy.
like literally.
he has PTSD.
and i learned about that stuff in psychology.
im like "woah."
i cant believe it.
its so sad.
my grandpa who ive looked up to my whole life, is mentally unstable.
its insane.
i cant even think about it for too long.
i really miss bryan.
he is my whole life.
i love him so much.
sometimes i wonder if he could ever love me as much as i love him.
i mean he lives all the way in norfolk and i have seen him ONCE.
thats just not enough for me.
he...
hes my world.
my EVERYTHING.
i dont think i could live without him.
when i saw him and i was leaving,
we just held eachother and cried.
i HATE not knowing what hes doing or what hes thinking.
or if hes thinking about me.
i miss him.
GOD.
its lame how many problems with guys i have.
haha.
its sad,
grr.
i hate this fucking music.
its like all rap..
the "popular" shit.
yuck.
its making me sick.
i miss the good stuff.
like fall out boy...
fueled by ramen and decaydance shit.
that stuff is so amazing.
im HOOKED.
gym class heroes have got me.
i love them.
cartel.
motion city soundtrack.
cute is what we aim for.
mcr.
YAYYY!
fall out boy is on.
my mood just changed!
mood:uberhappy!
fob is my FAVORITE band.
NO not like omg i heard them on mtv and i think i love them.
ive been a fan since before mtv thnx much.
they are awesome.
ive been to two shows.
the first one i was front row
god patrick stump is GORGEOUS.
my clothes couldnt fall off fast enough for that guy.
ohh man.
well...
im bored.
i think im gonna go play in the pool.
♥
xoxoxo.
location:Las Vegas, Nevada.
mood:on the inside looking out.
so im in the kitchen.
on my aunts laptop.
i dunno.
ive been feeling like i need to vent.
so i decided to make up one of these.
tomorrow is the big day.
my mom and her ex husband(aka my bio. dad) are going to court.
my dumbass dad is trying to get custody.
is he retarded?
i mean, i havent given him ANY indications that i would ever want to see his stupid face again...
and now hes trying to turn me against my mom.
its disgusting.
i hate him.
but if he tries his normal shit again, like taking my sister and i to cps, im gonna blast him and he will be so sorry he ever even bothered with us.
im going to get him so bad.
oh.
his face will be OWNED all over the place.
i hope he does.
i just found out something crazier than crazy.
my grandpa is crazy.
like literally.
he has PTSD.
and i learned about that stuff in psychology.
im like "woah."
i cant believe it.
its so sad.
my grandpa who ive looked up to my whole life, is mentally unstable.
its insane.
i cant even think about it for too long.
i really miss bryan.
he is my whole life.
i love him so much.
sometimes i wonder if he could ever love me as much as i love him.
i mean he lives all the way in norfolk and i have seen him ONCE.
thats just not enough for me.
he...
hes my world.
my EVERYTHING.
i dont think i could live without him.
when i saw him and i was leaving,
we just held eachother and cried.
i HATE not knowing what hes doing or what hes thinking.
or if hes thinking about me.
i miss him.
GOD.
its lame how many problems with guys i have.
haha.
its sad,
grr.
i hate this fucking music.
its like all rap..
the "popular" shit.
yuck.
its making me sick.
i miss the good stuff.
like fall out boy...
fueled by ramen and decaydance shit.
that stuff is so amazing.
im HOOKED.
gym class heroes have got me.
i love them.
cartel.
motion city soundtrack.
cute is what we aim for.
mcr.
YAYYY!
fall out boy is on.
my mood just changed!
mood:uberhappy!
fob is my FAVORITE band.
NO not like omg i heard them on mtv and i think i love them.
ive been a fan since before mtv thnx much.
they are awesome.
ive been to two shows.
the first one i was front row
god patrick stump is GORGEOUS.
my clothes couldnt fall off fast enough for that guy.
ohh man.
well...
im bored.
i think im gonna go play in the pool.
♥
xoxoxo.