all things go
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 4:06 PM
This much I know.
No two lives are exactly alike. With this said, I can't expect anyone to understand mine, that would be quite selfish. However, is it too much to ask you to take the time to hear me out, and explain to you why I do the things I do? Hardly. I would lend my ear to any friend at anytime in need, hands down. My phone is always on, although I miss calls from time to time, I try my hardest to get back with those trying to contact me.
Regarding the mishap that occured in Bay City over the last week, it is out of my hands now. What is done is done. I can not change the fact that I left, however, I can explain to you the reasons and my feelings towards the actions that I took. A good friend once told me that he had to "do what he had to do, to get what he wanted out of life.... Even if sometimes it meant stepping on peoples backs to climb to the top". I would not argue that point, as that is how many reach success. However, I don't see my actions as stepping on others, maybe side-stepping around them in order to get what I wanted - Peace of mind, and a point proven.
I realize that my leaving Bay City was a decision that was very brash. I didn't take into account the feelings of others when I did it; all I knew was that for me, it was the only solution. Honestly, I seen it as selfless, I wasn't getting what I wanted, and by not doing what I wanted to do also left others unhurt. I did not get to see all of the people I wanted to and I did not get to say goodbye to those I did see, all of which were for too short of a time.
I feel that I can't handle being pulled in a million different directions. Instead of making some people being mad about who I saw or what I did with my time in Bay City, I simply left and saw no one. The last thing on my mind was that people would be mad or hurt by this. I didn't even think of that. I figured it was the perfect solution. This was a decision that was personal, and included very little people besides myself and included none of my friends. Family issues were the fuel in the car that drove me away.
This is mostly for one person in particular, but if I hurt your feelings or you're salty about my leaving so abruptly - here's my explaination.
If you have any other comments or concerns regarding this issue, as previously mentioned, my phone is always on.
This much I know.
No two lives are exactly alike. With this said, I can't expect anyone to understand mine, that would be quite selfish. However, is it too much to ask you to take the time to hear me out, and explain to you why I do the things I do? Hardly. I would lend my ear to any friend at anytime in need, hands down. My phone is always on, although I miss calls from time to time, I try my hardest to get back with those trying to contact me.
Regarding the mishap that occured in Bay City over the last week, it is out of my hands now. What is done is done. I can not change the fact that I left, however, I can explain to you the reasons and my feelings towards the actions that I took. A good friend once told me that he had to "do what he had to do, to get what he wanted out of life.... Even if sometimes it meant stepping on peoples backs to climb to the top". I would not argue that point, as that is how many reach success. However, I don't see my actions as stepping on others, maybe side-stepping around them in order to get what I wanted - Peace of mind, and a point proven.
I realize that my leaving Bay City was a decision that was very brash. I didn't take into account the feelings of others when I did it; all I knew was that for me, it was the only solution. Honestly, I seen it as selfless, I wasn't getting what I wanted, and by not doing what I wanted to do also left others unhurt. I did not get to see all of the people I wanted to and I did not get to say goodbye to those I did see, all of which were for too short of a time.
I feel that I can't handle being pulled in a million different directions. Instead of making some people being mad about who I saw or what I did with my time in Bay City, I simply left and saw no one. The last thing on my mind was that people would be mad or hurt by this. I didn't even think of that. I figured it was the perfect solution. This was a decision that was personal, and included very little people besides myself and included none of my friends. Family issues were the fuel in the car that drove me away.
This is mostly for one person in particular, but if I hurt your feelings or you're salty about my leaving so abruptly - here's my explaination.
If you have any other comments or concerns regarding this issue, as previously mentioned, my phone is always on.