2 years
Two years ago today my brother died.
I'm feeling pretty good today, so far. Enjoying a day off with Autumn, about to go shopping. Argued with a creditor.
I don't want to get too reflective right now, because I'd rather keep enjoying my day. I don't want to force myself to be emotional because of the date, though I am a little surprised at how up I am feeling.
It helps that I know people are praying for me, and are willing to just go with the flow of however I am feeling. The complete lack of pressure to be up or down or whatever makes it much easier. That, and Autumn not heading out of town until tomorrow so that she is with me today. And apparently I'm being spoiled later this evening.
I choose my icon because, even though I'm doing okay so far, I'd much rather not have had to deal with this at all.
Though you have to admit, it does take finesse to orchestrate one's own death in a way that ruins a holiday and a birthday for one's sister for several years. Not to mention a European vacation. But I say this light heartedly. The 4th has never been a big deal for me, and my birthday isn't ruined. It just might be a few years before I can really enjoy it again, which is ok. Hopefully I won't get a cold for my birthday like last year.
I'm going to go read the comics now. I need a Sally Forth fix.
I'm feeling pretty good today, so far. Enjoying a day off with Autumn, about to go shopping. Argued with a creditor.
I don't want to get too reflective right now, because I'd rather keep enjoying my day. I don't want to force myself to be emotional because of the date, though I am a little surprised at how up I am feeling.
It helps that I know people are praying for me, and are willing to just go with the flow of however I am feeling. The complete lack of pressure to be up or down or whatever makes it much easier. That, and Autumn not heading out of town until tomorrow so that she is with me today. And apparently I'm being spoiled later this evening.
I choose my icon because, even though I'm doing okay so far, I'd much rather not have had to deal with this at all.
Though you have to admit, it does take finesse to orchestrate one's own death in a way that ruins a holiday and a birthday for one's sister for several years. Not to mention a European vacation. But I say this light heartedly. The 4th has never been a big deal for me, and my birthday isn't ruined. It just might be a few years before I can really enjoy it again, which is ok. Hopefully I won't get a cold for my birthday like last year.
I'm going to go read the comics now. I need a Sally Forth fix.