The weekend
Sometime you know somethings, sometimes you don't! Well, I heard that saying a lot this weekend from Ryan. It kinda fits my mood right now though. You see, my parents are really getting to me again. And they think that they know a lot of shit that they really don't! It really pisses me off. It all started Saturday morning. I woke up by my dad yelling at me to get up! Not just a "Sam it's time to get it," but it was a "Sam, get up know you have shit to do" I hate it when I wake up in a bad mood cuz you know that the rest of the day will suck! Well, when I was home during the day it sucked, then I went and played some Ultimite Frizbee....it was a great time. After that Ryan came over and we had a good time....we always do though! It seams like everytime I am with him I just forget what else is going on in my life! Well, it was that way till today. Today before I left the house my parents had a lady come over to price our house to see how much we could get for it if we would sell. It is just a house but I have grown very fond of my house. I love my house I wouldn't want to move at all. I think thats way I was a lil down today! It was kinda a bum day! I did a lot but I felt like I was moving in slow motion and now that I think about it, it seams like nothing happend. I got hurt today though! A big concreat brick fell on my foot...it's brusied now!! It dosen't hurt that bad though! Oh another thing with my parents is that I got in trouble last night. Ryan was here to late and my dad woke up and got pissed! Oh well I guess, they just don't understand me anymore. Well, right now anways. They basically grounded me from Ryan for the week, I don't think that is going to happen sence I was just with him tonight! My parents don't get that I am leaving in 7ish months to go off to school. They think I am going to be home every weekend like my sister. But, I wont be! I will be too far away! I really want to get out of here now! I will miss a lot of people next year but being out of my house seams so much better right now then just missing some people that I could come back and see!! I do love my parents... they just get to you after awhile. They shelter me so much and I don't even do anything wrong really....drugs got brought up again tonight! I asked them to drop it cuz it was driving me nuts, I don't think they cared that iwas drivng me nuts. My mom thinks that I don't eat either...what the hell, I eat. Why wouldn't I?! Food is way to good to not eat it or just puke it up!! I haven't been that hungry lately just because I haven't been feeling that good. I can't help that though! My stomic probably shrunk so then I won't eat a lot and I'll be full! Drives me nuts how they think they know what goes on but they don't not at all! I would be the happiest person in the world right now if they would just trust me or just let me be my own person! It really drives me nuts how that happens... they raise you so they think that they have full controll over you! When does it stop?! When does that controll go away and become yours and only yours?Will it ever be just yours or will other people be controlling your life as well!? A boss, a freind, a boyfreind?! Does it ever stop, will you ever get to be free and your own person?! Will people ever stop jugdeing other people on what they look like and look inside of the person?! Just because they my look "bad" or dress that way doesn't mean that they are!! It doesn't mean shit! The people who dress nice are probably the people you don't want your kids around cuz they drink almost every weekend....but the people who dress "differently" you judge! Whats wrong with that? Parents teach us to look at things with an open mind.....but then they don't!? And when they say that the peopl you hang out with dress differently?? How so? It's fine for the "preps" to all dress the same and the "jocks" to all dress the same but when it comes to something they aren't use to their afreind?! Yes, I know people are afraid of the unknown...but, they can't ever get to know it if they don't have an open mind....well my mind is open...I try and give everyone a chance...it just so happens I found someone really great out of me taking that chance...I am really happy with him and I am so glad I found him!! But, goodnight!