i dont get it
I hate life...like i mean, very few of the time i have good days...but all the time, even if nothing bad happens my day still sucks. i dont get what it is. i mean i'v adjusted to high school and all, i just hate everything...i mean im pissed off at everyone all the time, and i seriously just wanna punch people 24/7...thank god for my punching bag. i dont know what it is. life just sucks, i mean still missing horseback riding...but there is nothing i can do about that...but seriously, life just sucks, and i dont get why!!!!!everything is just going dooooooown hill@! iv been sooo stressed out about nothing, and i just wanna....like i said punch sum1!! and then there is that secret that only lindsey i think knows about, and that is just soooo depressing! and i seriously think that was the stupidest thing i ever did!!! im constantly thinking people are mad at me, or hate me...im just so stressed...and paranoied...but everyone does! and i know people say " o samfa everyone likes you" but thats not true, i hvae very few people who actually like me...and im not kidding...i dont really ahve any friends..i dont like myself, and i think...no i know, im a horrible person, and ugly, and stupid! i just dont like anything about myself...and im uberly depressed, but people like doctors and stuff say im just an angry peron. wonder why, shit faces like them tellin me what i am!!...but i mean i wouldnt be so mad if they cared, or even listend to my side of the story...i just wish that i had someone to talk to whom i can trust...i dont trust like anyone...maybe 2 people...my parents like my mom is always like " o sam u can trust me" and " o sam u can talk to me" well i cant cuz i hate her. shes thinkin like we are best friends, but she dosnt know anything about me...no one does, and im serious...there are so many things people dont know about me...cuz people dont care, and im not sayiong im perfect, but thats the main reason i dont talk to people, cuz seriously NO ONE CARES!! its just pointless to talk to people, because i think there is one person who i can talk to, who i think actually cares about me...i wish there was more, but o well, and im not saying im the best person to talk to but i try real hard to be! i also miss sooo many good times..iv had very few good times in my life, and now i dont fell like im gunna ahve anymopre, cuz for the longest tiem, whenever im having fun, then i dunno...life starts sucking again, and i feel like..no i know, im loosing ALL of my freinds...like seriously no one likes me anymore...did i already say that...o well
...i dont know....to sum this up...I HATE LIFE