I'm waiting for the sign, have to leave this place behind where no one knows my name.
Well this has certainly been a weekend of little sleep and too many stimulants. Friday night went to Club Phoenix with Matt and Tracey. Ran into old friend Helen, Dave and a couple of other people. Ended up getting home about 1pm on Saturday and falling asleep for a few hours, before heading to Schverkraft. Was good times, danced till my foot bled. Got cracked onto a lot. Didn't drink much due to limited funds. But oh, what a night. Had really good chats with a few people although one in particular has me questioning my whole self image. Well, I don't know, it's a defence mechanism I can't get by without putting my walls up and being distant from people who make my life hurt. There's only a few people that I ever really let my guard down with, although I'd never really thought about it before. But really what does it matter? I'm not good enough anyway, so why not be distant?
I wish an attractive person of some description would turn up at my door right now with an anti pesto platter for me. I really, really wish my friends would stop reporting things to me that they see. I don't want to know, MEANS, I don't want to know! I know they mean well, but I wish people could understand that the smallest thing can trigger me, I'm barely staying afloat as it is so to speak. Maybe I shouldn't be so closed off to everyone cuz then maybe they'd see that I'm screaming inside. But I can't. How do you SLEEP at night?
Me and Jen after Schverkraft closed, dancing to our mp3 players...Note at this point my toes were bleeding, but I was too hyped up to realise. SAFE FOREVER!!! FOREVER!!!
I start my traineeship thing tomorrow, woah scary. Here's hoping I do not screw up. Here's pictures.
What went wrong cuz you said this was right...
You fucked up my life.
With Jason at Phoenix on Friday
Tracey and friend at Phoenix
Lol Tracey.
GIGGITY!!!!
He looks so grown up these days. <3
Everything is ruined forever.
This was my outfit of super fantastic awesome for Schverkraft. Wasn't going to go out but when I saw myself in this I could not deny the public my stomach.
"What do you want to be remembered for when you die?"
With Jen and Corvus my sexy bitches.
The three hot bitches in the CORNER with Couch-Teddy-Daniel.
It's about time that this world goes up in flames
Like a bolt from the blue descending from the sky
my brain colapses in the dead of night
too much for my psyche, another crack-up
if you're awake please join me
all the things you see,the same what I see
we listen to the sound of a nervous breakdown
a deathly wish with the will to live
is one of the things that freaks me out
...I'm waiting for a sign, have to leave this place behind
Where no one knows my name
And later we'll come down
we'll both break down and cry our last goodbye
I break the chains I'm out of line
I'm living on nerves, last day of ninety-nine
nightmare, conspiracy, depression and lunacy
I need to feel more love inside
Locked up, messed up, maybe there is no tomorrow?
all the thinking does me no good
I'll miss you my love but it's about time
that this world goes up in flames
I'm waiting for a sign, have to leave this place behind
where no one knows my name
And later we'll come down
we'll both break down and cry and say our last good bye
I wish an attractive person of some description would turn up at my door right now with an anti pesto platter for me. I really, really wish my friends would stop reporting things to me that they see. I don't want to know, MEANS, I don't want to know! I know they mean well, but I wish people could understand that the smallest thing can trigger me, I'm barely staying afloat as it is so to speak. Maybe I shouldn't be so closed off to everyone cuz then maybe they'd see that I'm screaming inside. But I can't. How do you SLEEP at night?
Click to viewMe and Jen after Schverkraft closed, dancing to our mp3 players...Note at this point my toes were bleeding, but I was too hyped up to realise. SAFE FOREVER!!! FOREVER!!!
I start my traineeship thing tomorrow, woah scary. Here's hoping I do not screw up. Here's pictures.
What went wrong cuz you said this was right...
You fucked up my life.
With Jason at Phoenix on Friday
Tracey and friend at Phoenix
Lol Tracey.
GIGGITY!!!!
He looks so grown up these days. <3
Everything is ruined forever.
This was my outfit of super fantastic awesome for Schverkraft. Wasn't going to go out but when I saw myself in this I could not deny the public my stomach.
"What do you want to be remembered for when you die?"
With Jen and Corvus my sexy bitches.
The three hot bitches in the CORNER with Couch-Teddy-Daniel.
It's about time that this world goes up in flames
Like a bolt from the blue descending from the sky
my brain colapses in the dead of night
too much for my psyche, another crack-up
if you're awake please join me
all the things you see,the same what I see
we listen to the sound of a nervous breakdown
a deathly wish with the will to live
is one of the things that freaks me out
...I'm waiting for a sign, have to leave this place behind
Where no one knows my name
And later we'll come down
we'll both break down and cry our last goodbye
I break the chains I'm out of line
I'm living on nerves, last day of ninety-nine
nightmare, conspiracy, depression and lunacy
I need to feel more love inside
Locked up, messed up, maybe there is no tomorrow?
all the thinking does me no good
I'll miss you my love but it's about time
that this world goes up in flames
I'm waiting for a sign, have to leave this place behind
where no one knows my name
And later we'll come down
we'll both break down and cry and say our last good bye