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birthday. whatever. dad got me an ipod shuffle. i dont have a computer that works. so i can't even use it.
i hate today. i'm always miserable on my birthday. and christmas and shit. because it just proves to me that most of the people i think care about me, dont give a rats ass.
in other news, my friend's dad's wake is today. but i dont think i can handle going. i mean...i'm in the state ofmind where the slightest thing will make me cry. i can't..i can't be reminded of eric. and his was the only wake i have ever gone to. and i know it's selfish and childish. but i don't want to be grown up today. i just don't want to feel any more sadness today. i can't. i just...can't.
i hate today. i'm always miserable on my birthday. and christmas and shit. because it just proves to me that most of the people i think care about me, dont give a rats ass.
in other news, my friend's dad's wake is today. but i dont think i can handle going. i mean...i'm in the state ofmind where the slightest thing will make me cry. i can't..i can't be reminded of eric. and his was the only wake i have ever gone to. and i know it's selfish and childish. but i don't want to be grown up today. i just don't want to feel any more sadness today. i can't. i just...can't.