Saying goodbye is sad.
I just said goodbye to everyone at my work. It is really sad. My job is the sort where everyone kind of hates it, and that hatred creates this sort of weird camaraderie. I guess it's the sort of job most people stay in forever, so when someone leaves it is really bizarre.
I tend to think of myself as a super emotional person when it comes to books and movies and television, but when it comes to real-life people I am cold like a serial killer. I am always like this in my head, anyway, and in some respect to a percentage of people, so I'm never really prepared to actually feel real human emotions when they come. It's like they sneak up on me or something.
Tonight one of my coworkers (an older lady) organised this big party where everyone brought in homemade food. She had a retarded colourful kid's tablecloth and everything, because she knew how much I'd enjoy it, and it reminded me of how well you get to know the people you work with, even when you're like me and don't realise that they've actually become real people to you, not just people you bump into every day. In a way it's like highschool, the same sort of atmosphere, because you're all smushed in with people you'd usually never interact with. I kinda love that. Even when the people are 100% annoying it is still fascinating to me. My coworkers are pretty much made up of country people, some of which are a little homophobic, or racist, or just plain old normal. I guess what I want to say is that I never expected to become so close to some of these people, especially my closest friend, because she's someone I wouldn't really cross paths with if we didn't work together. She's a couple years older than me, and married with a kid, and even though we talk constantly at work she is very WTF LOL about the whole SAM LOVES JAPANESE BOYBANDS thing. I take great delight in telling her things that'll horrify her. She says the most horrible things about Kame. I kinda love it.
I walked into work tonight and she presented me with this big card with さようなら written on the envelope, and I stared at it for ages while she proudly told me how she'd googled it, and that I had an awesome present coming that she'd made everyone chip in for. I think these are the things that really get to me; people doing things that are so completely outside their comfort zone. Then she told me that I'd always be one of her best friends. Now I am reminded of how much I am totally cut off from my own emotions, like a creepy robot.
Sam's first livejournal post in a million years................................. hi. Sorry you get emo post and not details about how I saw Big Bang and a gazillion other way more interesting things. Just felt like putting this here.
P.S. Someone wrote a note in my goodbye card and mentioned my love for JUSTINE BEAVER jesus christ i love people.
I tend to think of myself as a super emotional person when it comes to books and movies and television, but when it comes to real-life people I am cold like a serial killer. I am always like this in my head, anyway, and in some respect to a percentage of people, so I'm never really prepared to actually feel real human emotions when they come. It's like they sneak up on me or something.
Tonight one of my coworkers (an older lady) organised this big party where everyone brought in homemade food. She had a retarded colourful kid's tablecloth and everything, because she knew how much I'd enjoy it, and it reminded me of how well you get to know the people you work with, even when you're like me and don't realise that they've actually become real people to you, not just people you bump into every day. In a way it's like highschool, the same sort of atmosphere, because you're all smushed in with people you'd usually never interact with. I kinda love that. Even when the people are 100% annoying it is still fascinating to me. My coworkers are pretty much made up of country people, some of which are a little homophobic, or racist, or just plain old normal. I guess what I want to say is that I never expected to become so close to some of these people, especially my closest friend, because she's someone I wouldn't really cross paths with if we didn't work together. She's a couple years older than me, and married with a kid, and even though we talk constantly at work she is very WTF LOL about the whole SAM LOVES JAPANESE BOYBANDS thing. I take great delight in telling her things that'll horrify her. She says the most horrible things about Kame. I kinda love it.
I walked into work tonight and she presented me with this big card with さようなら written on the envelope, and I stared at it for ages while she proudly told me how she'd googled it, and that I had an awesome present coming that she'd made everyone chip in for. I think these are the things that really get to me; people doing things that are so completely outside their comfort zone. Then she told me that I'd always be one of her best friends. Now I am reminded of how much I am totally cut off from my own emotions, like a creepy robot.
Sam's first livejournal post in a million years................................. hi. Sorry you get emo post and not details about how I saw Big Bang and a gazillion other way more interesting things. Just felt like putting this here.
P.S. Someone wrote a note in my goodbye card and mentioned my love for JUSTINE BEAVER jesus christ i love people.