my body has the worst timing.

[same_old_stars]

it is so difficult to suck so much at something that you have wanted to do since you were a little girl.
it is just a devistating blow to the self to know that maybe your dreams are that much farther out of reach.

i never knew so much good and bad could happen in two months.
this year is just in the beginning and i don't know how i feel about it.

i still have so many unanswered questions
with no sign of answers in the future.

i am sick again and just want to curl in a ball under my blankets.
instead i get to study for three midterms for tomorrow.

the next 24 hours are really going to test me.

i am still waiting for that really good cry.