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so i've gotten in the bad habit of writing these around 1 a.m. it's kind of a bad thing cuz it allows me time to reflect on the day..which (if you know me at all) is a bad thing because i'm very over-analytical and extremely critical. which brings me to my next topic: the new year's resolution...this year it's not about world peace or a 4.0 gpa- it's about trying to make the best of life, even a pursuit of happiness with kind of a laid back attitude(which is so 1969, i know). i need to learn how to stop over-thinking things and how to start appreciating what i have. that's always been my problem, i look for happiness and find it but i can't admit that i'm happy and i push it away, only to miss it when it's gone. the sam of 2003 is not going to do that. she's going to milk happiness for all it's worth...and i'm done being a total hippie (make love not war) anyway.. i have boatloads of cleaning to do tomorrow plus a civil war project i need to work on plus musical audition crap plus trying how to work in a little bit of happiness..but we're not here to be mushy so i s'pose i'll be leaving