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I dont really feel like giving a full update on the David situation.
But i'll summarize...
I love David.
I strongly dislike the control his parents have over him, and me by extension because i live with him.
I am moving out next year, and i ended up telling David the real reason why because i couldnt lie and he kept saying that my parents were trying to break us up.
I really really hope Kristen comes next year.
I dont know how much of a future me and David could really have, because his mom has threatened me that David will break up with me if i move out, which #1 is frightening that she thinks she has THAT much control over him and #2 if its true that she could make him do that is definitely a que for me to bone out and #3 even if she cant make him break up with me, if she didnt want us together, she would do whatever she could to make sure we werent. and i dont know if anyone is worth putting up with that shit. especially someone who cant really fight his parents because they will cut him off.
In other news:
I am going to apply for an internship this summer where i would do research on diseases that disproportionatly affect minorities. I would travel to either Egypt, the Czech Republic, Peru, or Taiwan for 8-12 weeks depending on the program i got assigned to. I get paid $1200 a month for living expenses plus a $1000 dollar per month stipened. And it would look amazingly awesome to med or grad schools. I have to get two letters of recommendation, which is such a hassel, and i hate hate hate asking for, but i think i am going to suck it up because this is such a great opportunity. I have to write six (short) essays for the application, so i might ask for advice on what to write later when i am actually writing them. They are only taking ten undergrads. But im not sure how many people are going to apply. They didnt send emails to the bio kids, so that means only the ones searching for this shit this early would even know about it. I only found out about it because i was bored and happened to actually read one of the thousands(exageration) of emails i get from the physics department every week. I hope not many people kno, and i write kick ass essays and get letters of recommendation and get in. There is only one country i dont want to go to and that is mexico because it would only be going to TJ, which believe me is not too much of an experience, and it is studying AIDs, and im sorry annie, but i dont want to be in that close of contact. But even if i got in to that one i would probably still do it because it looks good on the application. And i could live in SD over the summer.
Im kind of not sure if i actually want to do it because it is for a long time, and im scared to be gone on my own with noone that i know and no easy cell phone access and because i would spend my twentyth birthday alone, and i would actually feel like i real life adult. But i am making myself at least try because I think i should for some reason.
So everyone who prays, please pray for me that it will work out like its supposed to (both the David thing and the summer thing) and if you dont pray, just send happy thoughts or something.
But i'll summarize...
I love David.
I strongly dislike the control his parents have over him, and me by extension because i live with him.
I am moving out next year, and i ended up telling David the real reason why because i couldnt lie and he kept saying that my parents were trying to break us up.
I really really hope Kristen comes next year.
I dont know how much of a future me and David could really have, because his mom has threatened me that David will break up with me if i move out, which #1 is frightening that she thinks she has THAT much control over him and #2 if its true that she could make him do that is definitely a que for me to bone out and #3 even if she cant make him break up with me, if she didnt want us together, she would do whatever she could to make sure we werent. and i dont know if anyone is worth putting up with that shit. especially someone who cant really fight his parents because they will cut him off.
In other news:
I am going to apply for an internship this summer where i would do research on diseases that disproportionatly affect minorities. I would travel to either Egypt, the Czech Republic, Peru, or Taiwan for 8-12 weeks depending on the program i got assigned to. I get paid $1200 a month for living expenses plus a $1000 dollar per month stipened. And it would look amazingly awesome to med or grad schools. I have to get two letters of recommendation, which is such a hassel, and i hate hate hate asking for, but i think i am going to suck it up because this is such a great opportunity. I have to write six (short) essays for the application, so i might ask for advice on what to write later when i am actually writing them. They are only taking ten undergrads. But im not sure how many people are going to apply. They didnt send emails to the bio kids, so that means only the ones searching for this shit this early would even know about it. I only found out about it because i was bored and happened to actually read one of the thousands(exageration) of emails i get from the physics department every week. I hope not many people kno, and i write kick ass essays and get letters of recommendation and get in. There is only one country i dont want to go to and that is mexico because it would only be going to TJ, which believe me is not too much of an experience, and it is studying AIDs, and im sorry annie, but i dont want to be in that close of contact. But even if i got in to that one i would probably still do it because it looks good on the application. And i could live in SD over the summer.
Im kind of not sure if i actually want to do it because it is for a long time, and im scared to be gone on my own with noone that i know and no easy cell phone access and because i would spend my twentyth birthday alone, and i would actually feel like i real life adult. But i am making myself at least try because I think i should for some reason.
So everyone who prays, please pray for me that it will work out like its supposed to (both the David thing and the summer thing) and if you dont pray, just send happy thoughts or something.