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I feel alone.
I normally do.
I sometimes try to put effort into friendships.
I always remember why I don’t often.
It always ends up being a one way kind of thing
Well until it is convenient for thus spoken of second party.
I don’t actually know how to do it anymore.
I guess it’s not like riding a bike
You fall off and end up in a black whole instead.
Damien and myself met a couple.
We went out with the male counterpart
And it was fine, fun, they got drunk.
He has a funny sense of humor and seems normal.
Everything fine.
We then go out to dinner with him and his other half.
It then became difficult and awkward.
We had nothing to talk about…
She would put in her two cents here and there
But if the boys were distracted off in their own world
We’d be in a strange silence.
Besides I don’t think he’s as entertaining when she is around.
That isn’t the first time..
Normally Damien introduces me to girls he works with or go to school with him
It is typically the same scenario.
Damien is entertaining get’s along with everyone
If he steps out for any reason and leaves me with these creatures
It is complete and udder awkward and strange babble
No one understands what I am talking about
Nor do they ever really have interest..
And I try to get to know anything about them
And it is nothingness
So I don’t try. It’s pointless.
Here I am with a guy
An old friend
And find myself in the same scenario.
Awkward, strange, needless.
No one needs me
It is a lonely existence.