Happenings of the last two months
OK, so what have I been up to. I think I have about two months to think back on. Yay! I’m still kicking myself in the arse for that one. A lot has happened; nothing earth-shattering, just a lot of Keep-me-busy type stuff, with some depression sprinkled in, but we won’t talk about that, because it’s not happy and positive, and good, right?
A week After I got back from Canada, I relented and let Emma take me grocery shopping. It was hard for me, but I did, and it turned out to be a good day. We went to the public market first, and I got lots of fresh fruits and vegetables. My only complaint is that they don’t last long. I found that if you leave something whether it’s refrigerated or not, thinking you’re going to cook it Thursday or Friday, it goes bad. Yes, Veggies do that from time to time. I can’t tell you how many things I‘ve had to trash, because I went to cook them, and they were already either somebody’s science experiment gone bad, or, something I could make penicillin out of if I knew how to. Ok, so I digress again. After that, she took me to a small store called price right, and I bought a ton of shit and only spent $44. I can’t go there often, because I have to get somebody to take me, as they don’t have customer service people to help people shop. Sucks, but whatcha gonna do. Then, I loaned her my old cell phone, because the screen died on her NV3, and I figured she’d get more use out of mine since she doesn’t need it to talk. I asked the rep what he knew about this rumor of an I-phone coming out, and he claimed he didn’t know anything. Of course he didn’t, but I figured I’d try anyway. Then we went back to her place, hung for a bit, and then she drove me home. We haven’t hung out since, because I think her nursing program is getting more and more intense. We went into the Wal-Mart where she works a couple weeks ago so I could introduce her to James, but she was only able to talk for a couple minutes.
There was lots of hanging out with Heather during that time. A few days before James came down, Heather, Renee, and I did a full moon ritual on the beach. That was perfect for me; sense I’m a mixture of both earth and water, and more connected to water. Ocean would have been ideal, but since we’re not geographically located near one, Lake Ontario was good enough for me. Heather and I also did some talking that night about things that were bothering me, and she said a lot of things that made me think. I’m learning, though slowly, about how to do this whole life/social/relationship thing. It sucks to know I haven’t been doing it right the last 33 years. Haha. Some days I wonder if I’ll ever figure it out. Sad part is that I’m socially awkward because of my own doing; shutting myself away and closing off after the whole Kathy and Leonard ordeal. But again, I digress. So the ritual was awesome. It allowed the three of us to talk and cry, and just get things out and learn to let go of people and things that no longer served us.
James came up on the 29th, and he was originally only supposed to stay for two weeks, but he decided to stay longer, as he didn’t get accepted into that course he was trying to get into, and they were giving him the run-around.
So his first weekend was spent with Heather, mostly. We had a little get-together that first Sunday for the engagement out at Cheeburger Cheeburger by the beach, and we all took a walk down to the water. Heather got pictures, and I got sea shells. The next week, we did two outdoor parties. One was something called Party in the park on Thursday night. It’s a summer thing they do, where they have local bands come play while people walk around, drink, and dance if they feel so inclined. On Friday night, we went to Band on the Bricks, which is another party-type thing they do at the public market on Friday nights in the summer. Kyle came with us, and we all had fun introducing James to Donna the buffalo, which is a local group. He absolutely loved it.
Saturday, we went back to the public market, where I got more fruits and veggies. James fell in love with these little Mexican things, the name escapes me right now, so we had to get the breakfast ones. Sunday was spent at Park AVE fest. I got one of those paint-on Tattoos. I chose one of a shooting star, but I chose blue for the color, because of my connection with water. Heather and I talked about the possibility of my getting a real tattoo, but I’m still on the edge on that one. I want to, but I’m kind of afraid of how it’ll look in ten or twenty years. I was thinking of getting a shooting star, but one that shoots through water. I love stars, and one of the readings I got recently referred to a shooting star, but because of my connection with the water element, I want water to be a part of my permanent tattoo. So, I’ll keep you all posted on that one.
The next weekend, we spent with Julie and Kim on Saturday. We needed to go shopping for Candi and Kyle’s wedding gifts, and we then went back to Kim and Julie’s place for pizza and wings. I don’t think we did anything on Sunday. He was glued to my computer for a good part of the first week due to some problems I was having. We managed to get all the updates downloaded, but we never did get my outlook express or my monopoly game to work. I guess I don’t’ need either of those things anyway, I guess. Monopoly would get too addictive, and Outlook distress, I don’t really use anymore.
During that week, Heather took us down to the beach late one night. We finally opened up the bottle of wine I bought for her last December, and we each had a glass and talked while her dog Memzy played in the water, and proceeded to soak us all. We had to leave quickly, because there got to be so many people down there, it wasn’t even peaceful anymore. We went back to her place, and got in the pool, because it was hot, and we wanted water, and it was there. She’s got one of those pools that looks like a kids wading pool, but for adults, so it’s bigger. It was great! We had fun talking about love, life, who was psycho, who wasn’t, blablablablabla.
The following weekend, I spent studying. Heather came over Friday night to help me study. She brought her friend Liza over to introduce her to James, and because she needed to be adjusted. Heather adjusted Liza, and I tried to massage the aria in question while we all talked. After Liza left, Heather quizzed me on various things for a couple hours. After she left, I noticed she forgot her phone charger as she’d plugged it in to charge her phone. I texted her and she said she was coming back for it. That led to a random trip to taco bell, and to Wegmans where I ended up buying too much stuff again. Yay for randomness.
That Sunday, we went to the Cracker Barrel for breakfast, because, I can’t let him go home without going there with me at least once. Then we went over to the Wal-Mart where Emma works and picked up a few things. I wanted to catch her on her break so I could introduce her to James, because I’ve been telling her how they’d get along since they’re both snarky and sarcastic. But she’d already had her break by the time she found out we were there. She was supposed to get back with us about the following Saturday, but never did. I imagine she got caught up with school stuff and just didn’t get to it.
The next weekend was Candi and Kyle’s wedding party. We were driven out by Tasha and her dude, and ended up staying with Candi and Kyle at her parents’ place, because the original plan was to go out to the cottage the next day. Well, Mother Nature said no. We ended up going swimming the night before, and just hanging out watching TV the next day. I finally got to see Click with Adam Sandler. I’d been wanting to see that movie since it came out back in 2006 or so. I think we all had a good time. We had a big dinner and a birthday celebration for Candi, and then her mom drove us home.
That next Thursday was the test. Heather and her friend drove us to Buffalo. After the test, I was rewarded with a trip to the anchor bar for some real chicken wings. I almost got a drink, but the others were getting regular drinks, and it’s really no fun drinking by oneself. We got home, I cried out all my test anxiety, and went to bed.
So he was going to leave that Saturday, but his mom suggested that since she was already going to be in Ottawa on that next Wednesday anyway, she might as well pick him up then, and stay here a couple extra days. He wasn’t going to do it at first. Something about how he was afraid it would be an imposition on me, and I wouldn’t get to bed until late that night, and blablablabla. I managed to convenes that nut job that it won’t be an imposition, and that I’ve stayed up later than that with him on the phone, so what’s the big deal. So he left Tuesday night. I think I’m still trying to get used to not having anyone there. I walk in after work expecting him to be there, and he’s not. It’s even hard to wind down at night before going to sleep. I think he was having the same problem too, as he was up all night Wednesday night after that long bus ride and the two or so hour car ride back to his apartment after that. Yes, folks, he has managed to get his sleep schedule back the way he likes it; up all night, sleep all day.
Yesterday, I did my first crystal bowl meditation in a very long time. Tasha came with me, and I think she benefitted from it too. Heather and one of her friends met us up there, and I hope the meditation helped her too. Apparently, there is another fire walk in October. There’s also a drum making workshop then, so I don’t know. I want to do both, but I may have to choose either due to timing or money. Yay! I’m not going to be upset if I don’t do the fire walk, because I did one back in the spring, and it was helpful. I am interested in the long crystal bowl meditation they’re going to do before, but it’s all the way in Williamson, and I don’t have transportation out there. So we’ll see. I may get in touch with Emma and see if she’s going to do this fire walk or not. If not, maybe I can talk her into the drum making workshop. I tried to talk her into coming to the ritual on the beach, but she never texted me back.
My work schedule changed again, so I’m working on Sundays now. Any hope of going back to first Unitarian church, squashed. Oh well. I do get Fridays off now, so if I have doctor appointments or any errands, I can do them on Fridays. I’m also trying to come up with an about me page for the blog, and a photo gallery. I’ve really neglected this thing, so I really need to rectify that in short order.
Anyway, I’m going to run. I’ve written a novel already, so I’ll be back soon. For those of you who are going through changes, or who are dealing with things health-related or otherwise, just know that my thoughts are with you all. Take care.
Originally published at Life in the Nuthouse. Please leave any comments there.