(no subject)
Five years later.
---and this shouldn't still be making me sick to my stomach.
But, it is.
It still goddamn is.
You had no right to effect the rest of my life.
No goddamn motherfucking right, you goddamn asshole.
..and I want it to stop.
I don't want this to be something that is constantly resurfacing.
I'll be fine. Not think about it at all for days. Weeks. Months.
Then FUCKING BAM.
There you are.
And there it is.
And there I am.
AND I'M DEALING WITH IT ALL OVER AGAIN.
...and it shouldn't still be effecting me.
I don't WANT it to.
But, it is.
And it will be.
Until---I figure out how to no longer allow it to.
(NO GODDAMN RIGHT.)
...
---and this shouldn't still be making me sick to my stomach.
But, it is.
It still goddamn is.
You had no right to effect the rest of my life.
No goddamn motherfucking right, you goddamn asshole.
..and I want it to stop.
I don't want this to be something that is constantly resurfacing.
I'll be fine. Not think about it at all for days. Weeks. Months.
Then FUCKING BAM.
There you are.
And there it is.
And there I am.
AND I'M DEALING WITH IT ALL OVER AGAIN.
...and it shouldn't still be effecting me.
I don't WANT it to.
But, it is.
And it will be.
Until---I figure out how to no longer allow it to.
(NO GODDAMN RIGHT.)
...