Aug 17, 2004 01:18
yes!
im starting over for good this time...its gunna be a year without kyle to make everything so much easier a better year with michael and just a less dramtic one...im gunna go back to being smart and the good girl i used to be b4 i met kyle this is what happened with me and nicki its horrible i wanted to cry
sAmMiE5181: so much drama nicki
ShigGs7657: ts not his fault, she turns everything into a fihgt((don't tell her i said that please)
sAmMiE5181: THANKS NICKI
sAmMiE5181: THANKS A WHOLE FUCKIN LOT
ShigGs7657: well you do with mike< you sai it urself
ShigGs7657: member me and you were walking down ur street and you siad that
sAmMiE5181: no but ok
ShigGs7657: i just didn't want to hrt ur feeling by saying it to you cause i wouldn't know if you rememberd
ShigGs7657: remember**
ShigGs7657: ??????
sAmMiE5181: i love it how you can say that to other ppl thanks
ShigGs7657: DID YOU EVEN READ WHAT I WROTE?
ShigGs7657: you said it!
ShigGs7657: when we were walking down ur street coming back from Denny's!
sAmMiE5181: no i dont
ShigGs7657: well then ur dumb cause we were i was like, you better not fihgt with mike and you were like yeah but it seems lik most of teh stuff he says is mean to me ! and i said well maybe it sounds like it but its not you take everything to offensivley
ShigGs7657: maybe we were sitting on teh curb waiting for him?! i don't remember
sAmMiE5181: okay well nicki you cant say anything bcuz you werent there for any of it and you could even ask missa she was there and he was acting like a total asshole so dont even try and i love it how you take his side...bcuz you know last time you took his side YOU ENDED UP GOING OUT WITH HIM
ShigGs7657: sam you didn't understand any of what i said
sAmMiE5181: yes i did i can read
ShigGs7657: i wasn't taking about when he was being mean, we were talking about before when you went out with him
sAmMiE5181: okay well im not talking about that now...but nicki you were also trying to say in your lj that you could of made him stop yeah made him stop by flirting with him and making him like you! yeah thats the way to go nicki even missa agrees with me on that one
sAmMiE5181: so dont try to say you dont flirt with him you do
ShigGs7657: no stop him by saying mike ur an asshole and you know that ur hurting her feeling so stop< and here you go again blaming me meany head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sAmMiE5181: nicki you flirt with him maybe you dont know it but you do and he probly even knows it...okay its really not easy having a friend that is 100937592873459 times better then you are so you cant talk all my friends are 198571980375 times better then me
ShigGs7657: and maybe i do flirt but even you know thats not my fault and if you don't then you do't know me AT ALL!!!!!
sAmMiE5181: i know its not your fault
ShigGs7657: okay, =thatnk you :-*
ShigGs7657: I AM NOT 39394874927987498237497 TIMES BETTER THAN YOU ARE!
ShigGs7657: josh H thinks ur soo hott and he doesn't even thik that im like pretty
sAmMiE5181: ok one guy nicki
ShigGs7657: lol no and jake and like jake T.
sAmMiE5181: i also like it how you took like my best friend away((jake)) now all the kid talks about is you we dont have fun convorsations anymore...good go out with him and just hurt him bcuz i give up on everyone
sAmMiE5181: and i fuckin give up on life so have fun
ShigGs7657: NO
Auto response from sAmMiE5181: crying myself to sleep
ShigGs7657: i won't hang out with him anymore if it means that much to you and im sry that me & him were both invited to chelbis, but please don't cry, i loove you and i won't talk to him anymore if thats what ttakes to make you feel better
sAmMiE5181: no hang out with jake i dont care and you know what go out with mike while your at it
sAmMiE5181: since you know it wouldnt be the first time
ShigGs7657: wtf, ur just made me soo mad after i tried to bee soo nice to one of my best friednds !but w/e, just be ur self and urn everything someone tried to do nice to you into a fihgt
sAmMiE5181: im sorry but you dont know i would of been nicer but chris was just being an asshole to me and then he blocked me or whatever so i couldnt yell at him and you were there and i needed to get it all out
sAmMiE5181: and i did and if you still wanna be my friend yay and if you dont i know what you mean
sAmMiE5181: i wouldnt wanna be friends with a fuck up eithr
sAmMiE5181: either*
ShigGs7657: ur not,
sAmMiE5181: no i am i wish i could go back to 5th grade where everything was so less dramatic and i was smart and loved and didnt go whoreish or ever meet kyle...thats what i wanna take back ever talking to kyle or even knowing him
ShigGs7657: yeah, but you have to put all that into ur past((lol that sounds funny)) you have a new year without him sooo juststart over!
sAmMiE5181: i know and i am going to put it all behing and kinda reanact 5th grade like be smart and all good girl((but still my more fun outgoing self))and start over with mike and make everything so less dramtic
ShigGs7657: good for you, can i still be frirends with jake? and if me and him do go out(( not likely though)) me you and him and mike can double date! ol
sAmMiE5181: yes..bcuz me and you are like best friends and him and mike are best friends so it will be all good up in the hood
sAmMiE5181: just dont take mike away hemeans to much to me to lose him
sAmMiE5181: again
ShigGs7657: okay! i promise, and right now me and you vow! try not to get mad at each other, don't be sooo dramatic....and be best friends!
sAmMiE5181: okay i promise!
ShigGs7657: ! yay!
sAmMiE5181: whohoo!
ShigGs7657: wow i just got really excitied
sAmMiE5181: okay well im going to write in my livejournal about all this crazy shit and how i got over it and then im going to bed bcuz im going to 6 flags at like 9..i know im excited too yay i love you nicki always and forever!
ShigGs7657: i love you oto always and forever and have fun tomarrow, both of you
oh god it was terrible i was all sad oh yeah i had a cutting spree today...haha 38 cuts but they arent deep they were made my safety pins and they tickled? lol missa made me bleed bcuz i could do it myself lol sorry you all probly think im a cutting bitch but im not gunna do it again i gotta stick to my guns and not get so depressed anymore its gunna be hard bcuz im so sensitive but as long as i have mike nicki missa jake stephany,chelbi and josh im all good up in my hood so wish me luck on this wonderful adventure of fun and happiness? lol