What would Kel say...?
This horrible inevitably I have to face. Something I knew from the get go.
Vincent's gonna go.
He's gonna leave to return home after his four years at Cornell...and everything will draw to a close...soon. Every one of his friends at first warned me, told me "But Precious, he's graduating" I shouldn't have invested so much of my heart.
but more so than ever I love this man.
So now I'm torn. Here in syracuse I don't have a lot going for me. I go to OCC and work two crumby jobs in a mall. I do have a house and a car to call my own, as well as my own debts.
But what if I left..? What if I could leave? Go to California, go home with Vincent. He hasn't offered, and when bringing it up he becomes very saddened. "This is what I was afraid of..." he whispered in bed next to me. "throwing everything you have away for me." For love...is it ever really throwing it all away? Isn't it always right if its for love? I feel so ripped apart inside. I feel like I would do it....if I knew what to do. I can't convince him that my life will go on and grow because of him. I don't know how to express to him that this is the right thing for me. In general this is the right thing to do. There is no other reason I'm leaving other than I love him and can't live without him now.
jesus...I dont know what to do. what to say,....i just..dont know.
Vincent's gonna go.
He's gonna leave to return home after his four years at Cornell...and everything will draw to a close...soon. Every one of his friends at first warned me, told me "But Precious, he's graduating" I shouldn't have invested so much of my heart.
but more so than ever I love this man.
So now I'm torn. Here in syracuse I don't have a lot going for me. I go to OCC and work two crumby jobs in a mall. I do have a house and a car to call my own, as well as my own debts.
But what if I left..? What if I could leave? Go to California, go home with Vincent. He hasn't offered, and when bringing it up he becomes very saddened. "This is what I was afraid of..." he whispered in bed next to me. "throwing everything you have away for me." For love...is it ever really throwing it all away? Isn't it always right if its for love? I feel so ripped apart inside. I feel like I would do it....if I knew what to do. I can't convince him that my life will go on and grow because of him. I don't know how to express to him that this is the right thing for me. In general this is the right thing to do. There is no other reason I'm leaving other than I love him and can't live without him now.
jesus...I dont know what to do. what to say,....i just..dont know.