Fronts...Why they plague this soul....
Sometimes, I find myself in the position where I have to act...
Because an act sometimes makes things easier for all parties involved
However, these "acting sessions" can take their toll on the reality of things
I recently said "I do not put up fronts"
I lied
Sometimes I have to
and it is horrible
Because by putting up the front, I may be damaging anything good that could result with the person I do it for
I dont want her to think that my "act" is real
Because it is not
I really want to tell people I like her
But it may have affects on others
Which is sad really
That it even matters in a mature relationship what anyone thinks anyway
Because if two people like one another
It should be their decision and what anyone thinks means jack squat
So I am making a change
No more bullshit fronts
This friendship or whatever else it could or could not be
Is far too important for it to be caught up in some kind of front
Life is precious and reality must be just that
I will not compromise what it is that I feel I want for anyone any longer
Even if others may feel hurt along the way
It just is not enough to stop me from doing what is right and just
Mind you, I am not walking on anyone by doing this
I am only doing what is right
For myself and for the other person...
Because an act sometimes makes things easier for all parties involved
However, these "acting sessions" can take their toll on the reality of things
I recently said "I do not put up fronts"
I lied
Sometimes I have to
and it is horrible
Because by putting up the front, I may be damaging anything good that could result with the person I do it for
I dont want her to think that my "act" is real
Because it is not
I really want to tell people I like her
But it may have affects on others
Which is sad really
That it even matters in a mature relationship what anyone thinks anyway
Because if two people like one another
It should be their decision and what anyone thinks means jack squat
So I am making a change
No more bullshit fronts
This friendship or whatever else it could or could not be
Is far too important for it to be caught up in some kind of front
Life is precious and reality must be just that
I will not compromise what it is that I feel I want for anyone any longer
Even if others may feel hurt along the way
It just is not enough to stop me from doing what is right and just
Mind you, I am not walking on anyone by doing this
I am only doing what is right
For myself and for the other person...