Thought to death
I think too much. I tend to over-analyze things and think them half to death and what gets shat out after is half of what it could be or even less. Potential lost in the grinder of the thought process. I used to be able to just... DO. Doing anything is half the battle because at least what comes out is substantial, tangible. I remember being able to put things down in pen/pencil and paper just like that. Now I tend to worry about the final outcome.
Is it ugly?
What will people think of it?
Will they like it?
Will I like it?
Will I get good grades?
All sorts of things start cropping up and the more I think about it the more un-doable the action becomes. Inertia, "all you need is a little push" some people tell me.. but whatever it is it's killing me. I find that I'm absolutely terrified of the blankness of the paper, of defiling the sanctity of the whiteness of the background of the file on screen, of the non-existence of the idea or the project. I'm becoming flakey and I hate flakes! Procrastination will be the death of me someday.
Is it ugly?
What will people think of it?
Will they like it?
Will I like it?
Will I get good grades?
All sorts of things start cropping up and the more I think about it the more un-doable the action becomes. Inertia, "all you need is a little push" some people tell me.. but whatever it is it's killing me. I find that I'm absolutely terrified of the blankness of the paper, of defiling the sanctity of the whiteness of the background of the file on screen, of the non-existence of the idea or the project. I'm becoming flakey and I hate flakes! Procrastination will be the death of me someday.