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my ex is driving me crazy. we live together my very regretful choice. He just dosent seem like he wants to be here and have the responsibility of three kids hs is in and out all day and at night he is gone for up to three to six hours even though im not his gf i still question about where he has been i just dont think that him staying out all out is very responisible parenting me and him we have a extensive history not all good either i have no trust in him i just want him to spend time with his kids my oldest has ptsd due to all the domestic violence that went on and even though she has a fear of her dad she still wants to spend time with him i breaks my heart to hear here ask for time with dad and all he does is nothing she has told me many times that she thinks that his friends are more important than her i hate hearing her say that i have approached him many times and all he says is shut the fuck up or whatever you blowing everyhting outta porportoin i guess the old saying is true you cant change a person unless their willing to change ijust feel like im wasting my time in trying to get him to be there for his kids i guess the reason i am doing this is because growing up my dad wasnt there he was either doped up selling cheating drunk or in jail i guess i just dont want her to feel like i did growing up i always wanted to give my kids diferent and instead i have either given them the same if not worse i feel like a failure every time i think about it i started my adult life too soon and now im paying the price i must say that it sucks and if any people are reading this that are teenagers please think before you engage in intimacy you never know how you life may turn out in ten years if i could help one person not have to face teen pregnancy every day i would be so happy to know that thet wont have to go through the things i have been through and still going through i can be honest and say that all the things i have been through have made me a stronger indivdual if you have any comments feel free to leave them i would love to hear what you have to say