unable to close my eyes
I can't sleep I miss him so much. I miss everyone to be sure but it's so bizzare not being held or knowing that if I REALLY wanted him to he could take 20 min and be by my side. When did I become so dependenton him? Not that it's a bad thing.
I'm hoping against all odds for the saturday phone interview to pan out. That would be a night job and if I get bored enough perhaps i'd get a part-time day job too that I could pull off. Then I could make more money, pay my parents back, and have something left over for living with Brad in September.
I want him to be here, to whisper in my ear that he finds me beautiful. I've only been home for a few days and already i've heard both of my parents tell my grandparents that i'm even fatter than before. Why do they need that kind of information? I don't know.
I'd tell him I miss him this much if it wouldn't make him sad that he's not here ...
I'm hoping against all odds for the saturday phone interview to pan out. That would be a night job and if I get bored enough perhaps i'd get a part-time day job too that I could pull off. Then I could make more money, pay my parents back, and have something left over for living with Brad in September.
I want him to be here, to whisper in my ear that he finds me beautiful. I've only been home for a few days and already i've heard both of my parents tell my grandparents that i'm even fatter than before. Why do they need that kind of information? I don't know.
I'd tell him I miss him this much if it wouldn't make him sad that he's not here ...