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"It's almost like you had it planned. It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said 'hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time'. What was I supposed to do? I was stuck in between you and a hard place, but we won't talk about the hard place. I dont blame you anymore, that's too much pain to store. It left me half dead inside my head."
I'm not having a good weekend. I mean, I try so hard to seem tough and to not act hurt, because depression or sadness to some people is the equivalent of blood to sharks. But sometimes I can't help it. People think that because I act tough, I am immune to being hurt and it's not true. The funny part of this whole thing is the fact that people think I trust them. I trust exactly 1 person completely. And I couldnt tell you the last time I trusted anyone other than that one person. I learned a long time ago that people are jerks and that when they're mad at you, they'll use what you've told them against you, or it will inevitably be known to all of your friends when you werent the one to tell them. The people that you love will inevitably be the ones to hurt you the most and I just dont need it, dont want it and cant stand it. I dont know how to trust someone, and if you cant trust someone, how can you love them? You cant. I'm not happy with this situation, but it is my safest route for me to be on. I honestly cant not endure any more betrayl.
I'm not having a good weekend. I mean, I try so hard to seem tough and to not act hurt, because depression or sadness to some people is the equivalent of blood to sharks. But sometimes I can't help it. People think that because I act tough, I am immune to being hurt and it's not true. The funny part of this whole thing is the fact that people think I trust them. I trust exactly 1 person completely. And I couldnt tell you the last time I trusted anyone other than that one person. I learned a long time ago that people are jerks and that when they're mad at you, they'll use what you've told them against you, or it will inevitably be known to all of your friends when you werent the one to tell them. The people that you love will inevitably be the ones to hurt you the most and I just dont need it, dont want it and cant stand it. I dont know how to trust someone, and if you cant trust someone, how can you love them? You cant. I'm not happy with this situation, but it is my safest route for me to be on. I honestly cant not endure any more betrayl.