Different....
Hmm.. for those of you that know me.. you would know i cling to the past... Patrick god i held onto him forever.. grade nine memories.. i held onto those forever too!! it made grade ten a miserable year for me, because i could not live in the present...
So I tried at the beginning of this year.. to make myself extra extra busy.. no time to think and no time to breathe.. just study, row and play the violin.. that was my life and i really thought it worked. I thought I had moved on with my life because I didn't think about the past anymore.. but really.. i wasn't really thinking at all... and once i slowed down and rowing and exams were over.. i was upset again..
But now.. im fine.. i really just let go and i realized that i needed to move on bad.. and yeah i kind of fucked up a lot of things when i was doing that.. friendships.. grades.. but yknow it was totally worth it.. and yeah.. now the blindfold is lifted and oh i found guys at smus!!! ah yay!! its wonderful!!
Well.. i really need to go to bed.. everybody have a good night!! and GOOD LUCK ON EXAMS!!!
Luvya!!!
So I tried at the beginning of this year.. to make myself extra extra busy.. no time to think and no time to breathe.. just study, row and play the violin.. that was my life and i really thought it worked. I thought I had moved on with my life because I didn't think about the past anymore.. but really.. i wasn't really thinking at all... and once i slowed down and rowing and exams were over.. i was upset again..
But now.. im fine.. i really just let go and i realized that i needed to move on bad.. and yeah i kind of fucked up a lot of things when i was doing that.. friendships.. grades.. but yknow it was totally worth it.. and yeah.. now the blindfold is lifted and oh i found guys at smus!!! ah yay!! its wonderful!!
Well.. i really need to go to bed.. everybody have a good night!! and GOOD LUCK ON EXAMS!!!
Luvya!!!