I'm going to hell
I can't pray. I can't think. I dunno. I'm going to hell....
Mom and dad wanted me to pray aloud and i said no. They kicked up a big fuss. I dunno. I just don't know. I'm so confused. They don't want me to go to Marquette anymore. If i can't just pray and get out of this stupid whatever that i'm in, then they can't trust me to go to college and not turn into a freak. I dunno. I'm weak. I'm an ass. I dunno. I'm lost and confused. I'm not worthy of anything. Why can't i just be like them and be perfect. Why can't i just do what i'm supposed to? What am i supposed to do? Why can't i face my fears, instead of just shedding tears? Thinking, not acting. Why can't i be like them?
Why can't i be like Asha? or Deepika? Why do i have to be me? I suck. I hate who i am. I really do. I feel so horrible about everything. I've messed up my body, and i've got a stupid mind. I dunno. I suck. I'm gonna go to hell, where i'll be all alone for eternity.
God, why can't i be like everyone else? Why can't i just do what i'm supposed to? Why can't i just love you like i need to? Was i created to be this way? Was i created to go to hell? Was i created unloveable? I dunno...you tell me. If you love me, tell me, you'll be the only one...
I'm just gonna go and lay down and...whatever...
Mom and dad wanted me to pray aloud and i said no. They kicked up a big fuss. I dunno. I just don't know. I'm so confused. They don't want me to go to Marquette anymore. If i can't just pray and get out of this stupid whatever that i'm in, then they can't trust me to go to college and not turn into a freak. I dunno. I'm weak. I'm an ass. I dunno. I'm lost and confused. I'm not worthy of anything. Why can't i just be like them and be perfect. Why can't i just do what i'm supposed to? What am i supposed to do? Why can't i face my fears, instead of just shedding tears? Thinking, not acting. Why can't i be like them?
Why can't i be like Asha? or Deepika? Why do i have to be me? I suck. I hate who i am. I really do. I feel so horrible about everything. I've messed up my body, and i've got a stupid mind. I dunno. I suck. I'm gonna go to hell, where i'll be all alone for eternity.
God, why can't i be like everyone else? Why can't i just do what i'm supposed to? Why can't i just love you like i need to? Was i created to be this way? Was i created to go to hell? Was i created unloveable? I dunno...you tell me. If you love me, tell me, you'll be the only one...
I'm just gonna go and lay down and...whatever...