ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
well jesus. things change fast.
i feel like i have grown a million miles since i last posted. im older. wiser. happier. i know more where im going. and im with a new boy tim. feels like the world has fallen sort of into place. im getting better grades. i have more motivation. i feel more like lynsey. but a version of lynsey i didn't know would exist. its a very strange feeling and everything happened very fast.
after the whole nathan thing, i felt pretty fucking low. if no one has picked up on anything, thats what basically all of the shit i wrote about in this thing was about. but i got pulled aside, whacked across the face and told to either man up or lose a lot more people in my life, including my sense of self. and hey. looks like it worked. i still see nathan these days, we are still mates. but looking back its hard to understand how i could let it fuck things up so badly. some strange unhealthy obsession. i have always been an obsessive person. maybe it just got out of hand. anyway. now, i totally dont get it.
tim is all shades of awesome. seriously. at first i didnt think things would go well...cause i can be a fucking wet blanket sometimes and he has the tendency to be pretty harsh and direct, but somehow it fits. me , lou and timmy are moving into a house, hopefully at the end of the uni year so i can do anatomy over summer semester, and he can work to save up for a car.
im home at the moment, recovering. tim would ususally have come with me but he is still on teaching prac. i have a chem exam looming around the corner, which is probably why i am still procrastinating so horribly. i do that less these days. i dont know why.
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