as posi as we wanna be
so, the past week has been one of the most positive weeks ive lived in a LONG time. and its definitely helped me out. but dam...y does it have to take so much effort.
i really wonder tho. i hope im not covering up my problems, or avoiding them altogether. i mean, i think ive known all along that my problems can not be solved at the present time. but every time those thoughts began to creep back into my head, i was able to do something else with them.
its really hard to explain.
i just want this to work so badly. im trying whatever i can. just whatever i can. and thinking positively is a great start, but in the end, i have to learn how to change my thinking. and that may only come in time. its a helluva thing
i think im nearing that point of standstill. now what? what is there to evolve? its a scary place. but i will continue to seek out new solutions. i have faith.
however, there is only so many times someone can hit the bottom. i can feel my mask of sanity starting to slip. but i will fight
i really wonder tho. i hope im not covering up my problems, or avoiding them altogether. i mean, i think ive known all along that my problems can not be solved at the present time. but every time those thoughts began to creep back into my head, i was able to do something else with them.
its really hard to explain.
i just want this to work so badly. im trying whatever i can. just whatever i can. and thinking positively is a great start, but in the end, i have to learn how to change my thinking. and that may only come in time. its a helluva thing
i think im nearing that point of standstill. now what? what is there to evolve? its a scary place. but i will continue to seek out new solutions. i have faith.
however, there is only so many times someone can hit the bottom. i can feel my mask of sanity starting to slip. but i will fight