If it'd been a snake, it'da bit me.
Reflection does wonders. It's so obvious and validating now to re-read my journal entries...
UNDERSTANDING WHY i was so frustrated with love and trust.
I had learned it all backwards from the fuckhead narcissistic cunt that is the woman who gave birth to me,.,
BPD is dark, embedded, unyielding and inflexible.
It helps remind me that the feelings I have now, are the same from my journal entries from 2010...the same journal entries HERE from 2006, and the memories I have growing up.
It's been right here the whole time.
I'm finally strong enough to step back and see the whole picture.
And to finally remove myself completely from it.
UNDERSTANDING WHY i was so frustrated with love and trust.
I had learned it all backwards from the fuckhead narcissistic cunt that is the woman who gave birth to me,.,
BPD is dark, embedded, unyielding and inflexible.
It helps remind me that the feelings I have now, are the same from my journal entries from 2010...the same journal entries HERE from 2006, and the memories I have growing up.
It's been right here the whole time.
I'm finally strong enough to step back and see the whole picture.
And to finally remove myself completely from it.