there's beauty in the breakdown
so it's recently come to my attention that i am not as together as i thought i was - in fact if i ever thought that i was together, it was a lie...because i'm not; i'm a mess - plain and simple.
so maybe i'm just having a bad week and am being really overly dramatic about it...but still. i feel like i'm coming apart at the moment - i have soo much stuff due this week for school...and i think i just failed a test. i was thinking, on my way back from class, that maybe i can't handle school and that made me want to cry - i got choked up and was trying to hold back the waterfall of tears that were forming in my eyes...and then i got pissed because i was about to cry because of school...and then i got sad; "well if i can't handle this, then maybe i should drop out before it gets too hard"...and then i got pissed again...and ugh!
i'm just overwhelmed and i realize that i'm being very emo about this but it just sucks - i'm sucking at school and i miss tyler like crazy. grrr...
AAAAAHHHH!!
well i guess i better get started on my homework...that i really don't want to do..
make love not war PEACE!
so maybe i'm just having a bad week and am being really overly dramatic about it...but still. i feel like i'm coming apart at the moment - i have soo much stuff due this week for school...and i think i just failed a test. i was thinking, on my way back from class, that maybe i can't handle school and that made me want to cry - i got choked up and was trying to hold back the waterfall of tears that were forming in my eyes...and then i got pissed because i was about to cry because of school...and then i got sad; "well if i can't handle this, then maybe i should drop out before it gets too hard"...and then i got pissed again...and ugh!
i'm just overwhelmed and i realize that i'm being very emo about this but it just sucks - i'm sucking at school and i miss tyler like crazy. grrr...
AAAAAHHHH!!
well i guess i better get started on my homework...that i really don't want to do..
make love not war PEACE!