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[saltwatercowgrl]

yesterday i went to work having a feeling i was going to talk to the human resource guy. i was right. oh man, was that uncomfortable. i started crying and then laughing at myself for crying. and then being really silent and just thinking about whatever, even things unrelated and he sat there and waited. and then i started talking and he started taking notes. and then i didn't feel like i was going to throw up anymore. that was until i saw him again today. he walked in and i kicked brittany under the counter. and we both freaked out a little bit. but nothing like the moment he took mr. tripoli into the office and shut the door. i almost started crying again. god. after forever he came out and man that was the most awkward situation ever. and now i don't know if i'm satisfied or if this makes it worse. well i don't feel any better. another couple of days and we'll see. it's all so stupid. i'm frustrated. hmm...if they let him stay, i think i will feel like maybe it wasn't a big deal and maybe i shouldn't have said anything. a hundred different scenarios run through my mind. but it's done, or atleast i can't go back, so there's no use torturing myself over it. yea, fuck it.

but the human resource guy is attractive. haha.

if your name is omega, you get a free rose today from the flower shop by my house. who's name is omega, i mean honestly.

i need to give an informative speech, i have no idea what i want to do it on, though.

this guy came in to cash his check and he looked exactly like that kid from step by step, mark. i couldn't get over it. i was like i know you probably get this all the time but you look just like that kid from step by step. he was like yea, i do. i told him he was more attractive though, because he was.