Starting over.
I think i'll start my new journal with a survey thing. I found it in awhiteshimmer 's journal. so here's a little bit about me. some of which might be useful information....
1. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone?
i would really have to think about that. i may come back to it. "I love you" is such an easy answer, but i never actually say that to people, and they know it's true anyway, so i don't have to. spoken words are so surface... people who love you know what's in your heart.
2. If a new medicine were developed that would cure arthritis but cause a fatal reaction in 1 percent of those who took it, would you want it to be released to the public?
arthritis is not so horrible a disease that we need to risk the life of one out of every 99 people. besides there are homeopathics that do more good than any medication for arthritis, and without any long-term side-effects (death being one).
3. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the body or the mind of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
Mind... i'm almost 30 and i would rather my body not be like this for 60 more years. but wait... is it my mind at 30, or the average mind of a 30-year-old? or have i just completely over-analyzed this question?
4. If at birth you could select the profession your child would eventually pursue, would you do so?
i'm still trying to select the profession i will eventually pursue. the kid's on his/her own there.
5. If you knew there would be a nuclear war in one week, what would you do?
Get together with my family and have a huge party, since it might be the last time we're all together in this life. hopefully others will wonder what these idiots are so happy about a week before a nuclear war and see the love of Jesus and understand. (who said acting like an idiot is a bad way to witness??)
6. Would you accept twenty years of extraordinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you had to die at the end of the period?
I will not experience extraordinary happines and fulfillment until death. For now, I'll take what comes. You take the good, you take the bad you take 'em both and then you ha...wait..... oh. okay. moving on.
7. If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it?
There's no way I can answer that without being in the situation. It also has to do with his attitude toward tragedy.
8. Someone very close to you is in pain, paralyzed, and will die in a month. They beg you to give them poison so they that they can die. Would you? What if it was your father?
Again, no way to answer honestly without being there. Of course my first thought is "no way," but if it were my father, who, in my mind, would never beg for me to kill him... that would be serious pain. and i would probably consider it. because he wouldn't ask me to do something if he didn't mean it.
9. Given the choice of anyone in the world, who would want as your dinner guest? As a close friend? As a lover?
dinner guest: my Granny
close friend: flannery o'connor (had to go along with hollie on that one... or did you have her as the dinner guest?)
lover: victor garber
10. What is the worst psychological torture you can imagine suffering? (it cannot involve any physical harm to you)
not being able to hear or make music for a very long time. that would make me crazy quicker than anything.
11. You and a person you love deeply are placed in separate rooms with a button next to each of you. You know that you will both be killed unless one of you presses the button before 60 minutes pass; furthermore, the first to press the button will save the other person, but will immediately be killed. What do you think you would do?
say appropriate last words to my friend and mash the button. that one's easy.
12. Would you be willing to go to a slaughter house and kill a cow? Do you eat meat?
What? Like, just for fun? Am i being paid to kill this cow? do i have to cut a hunk of meat out and grill it myself, or just kill the cow? you see, it depends on several factors. i'm not going to just go kill a cow for shits and giggles. and about eating meat... bring on the steak.
13. For $20,000 would you go for 3 months without washing, brushing your teeth, and using deodorant?
i think the cost of replacing all my rotten teeth and curing all my nasty infections from the bacteria that's been growing on my body and inside my mouth would be much greater than $20k. actually, that thing about psychological torture? i think this rank pretty high because i would pretty much want to throw myself off a bridge after about a week. and also? what are you going to do with $20,000 when you have no friends and you've been exiled to some remote island because you were attracting flies to the neighborhood and contributing heavily to the city's air pollution problem?
14. Which of these restrictions could you best tolerate: leaving the country permanently or never leaving the state in which you now live?
i can't tolerate the grammatical error in the question. when we compare two things, we say "better." That being said, i'd rather be confined to Georgia for the rest of my life than banished from it. but, i'm glad that's not the case because it's still a depressing thought.
15. If you could choose the sex and physical appearance of your soon-to-be-born child, would you do it?
i'd like to not have a hermaphrodite, and for the baby to have, you know, a head and limbs and all the right parts. but those are personal preferences, and ultimately, i'll take whatever God gives me, if He gives me any children at all.
16. Would you be willing to decrease your life expectancy by 5 years if you could become extremely attractive?
Mama always says, "Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes straight to the bone." Define "extremely attractive." I'd like to think I'm already quite attractive. I'm nowhere near perfect (a little overweight...accidently bleached half of one eyebrow when i frosted my hair a couple weeks ago.....), but my insides are what matter. So... no, i would not do that.
17. If your friends and acquaintances were willing to bluntly tell you what they really think of you, would you want them to?
i hope they already do that. brutal honesty is important to me.
18. Would it disturb you much if, upon your death, your body were simply thrown into the woods and left to rot?
As long as nobody is standing around me talking about how good i look, i don't give a rat's ass what happens to this empty shell. but i'd like for my organs to be donated first if you don't mind.
19. Would you like to know the precise date of your death?
Absolutely not.
20. Would you be willing to give up all television for the next 5 years if it would cause someone to provide for 1,000 starving children in Indonesia?
I'd miss Alias. And baseball and football. But who cares if 1000 children can have decent lives? Can I send them the TV I won't be watching? No sense in wasting a perfectly good tv.