I dont think about outcomes...
Latly this boy Rian has been calling me so much and i get annoyed sometimes, not always, but latly, because he's called so much in a row. Now i understand why Sam hates me because I called him so much or too late and he didnt really like me doing that, and i never got the hint i guess.. or maybe i just ignored it. I totally understand how he feels and understand why he wants to ring my neck. I regret calling Sam, but I can't take it back. And i can't believe i left those messages me and Kate left. It wasnt worth it. THose hilarious/stupid voicemails werent worth losing my friendship with Sam and having Sam hate me now because of the pointless things i chose to do without thinking. SO I am stupid. Sam's right. It's my fault I lost something so valuable to me. I guess I dont or never think about the outcome before I do something.
Also Sam was mad at the fact I figured out his sn password, which i understand why hes mad. I only went on it because i could get on it.. if that makes sence. Maybe cause im curious? i dont no anymore why i did. In some ways i don't have good slef control, i guess. So i do deserve the fact that he's mad at me and doesnt want to talk to me anymore. I messed some things up. But it's okay. I cant rewind my actions. This is the way things are now. And i feel bad and i deeply apoligize so much, but that wont take away the fact of what i did maybe we are just better off without each other.
I probably stress him out too much and make him think how stupid I am to do this stuff. Well thats what i think. Im not even sure why i did it. Im just a dumb girl who doesnt think making bad decisions that will caise her pain in the outcome of her stupid actions. THe funny voicemails were just for him to laugh. But we did go overboard with them, i suppose. But i do deeply apoligize for annoying sam with all the silly stupid stuff that i did. ANd I ge to live with the outcome I made come true now. ANd i cant and wont complain because I know i did this. ANd i understand why he stopped our friendship. I just made some bad choices that Im sorry for making. But what can i do know?? We're not friends. All i can do is learn from this. And I have
Because i lost someone so special, that i will never get back
And it is my fault.
But i do deeply apoligize.
And i miss him, I always have and I always will.
Since hes moved, the sun has still managed to shine. Time will never stop for us to catch up with one another.
Deep down inside, I know, we will both always treasure the moments we had with each other.
Also Sam was mad at the fact I figured out his sn password, which i understand why hes mad. I only went on it because i could get on it.. if that makes sence. Maybe cause im curious? i dont no anymore why i did. In some ways i don't have good slef control, i guess. So i do deserve the fact that he's mad at me and doesnt want to talk to me anymore. I messed some things up. But it's okay. I cant rewind my actions. This is the way things are now. And i feel bad and i deeply apoligize so much, but that wont take away the fact of what i did maybe we are just better off without each other.
I probably stress him out too much and make him think how stupid I am to do this stuff. Well thats what i think. Im not even sure why i did it. Im just a dumb girl who doesnt think making bad decisions that will caise her pain in the outcome of her stupid actions. THe funny voicemails were just for him to laugh. But we did go overboard with them, i suppose. But i do deeply apoligize for annoying sam with all the silly stupid stuff that i did. ANd I ge to live with the outcome I made come true now. ANd i cant and wont complain because I know i did this. ANd i understand why he stopped our friendship. I just made some bad choices that Im sorry for making. But what can i do know?? We're not friends. All i can do is learn from this. And I have
Because i lost someone so special, that i will never get back
And it is my fault.
But i do deeply apoligize.
And i miss him, I always have and I always will.
Since hes moved, the sun has still managed to shine. Time will never stop for us to catch up with one another.
Deep down inside, I know, we will both always treasure the moments we had with each other.