Dec 18, 2004 00:04
people find it hard to believe that i am 18 and still a virgin. their first question is of course, 'are you waiting for marriage'. my answer is no, believe it or not i am in no hurry to lose my virginity. yes i had a boyfriend for a year and a half, but no we never had sex. yes i was ready to, i loved him, but no we never did. what always struck me was the fact that i was ready to and he wasn't. i fnally understood the line 'but if you loved me you would' because i heard myself utter that same line to him. part of me thinks i should just do it and get it over with, i could have so much more fun if i wasn't one, but another part doesn't think so. i keep myself out of trouble because i am a virgin. i know that i'm never going to go too far with a guy. i always tell him that i am a virgin so that they don't get any expectations. i just find it funny that people find it hard to believe that i could be a virgin. i don't think i will ever understand. ben, (a good college friend) told me that i should watch out who i give it to because i'll wind up getting attached to him. i understand, but until then i don't have any trouble living with myself as a virgin. after all, you don't miss what you've never had.
peace~