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i feel pretty stupid right about now. but i think i can honestly say that i truly believe that things are going to get better from tonight on. maybe ill finally get my shit together, and maybe me and my mom will start fighting less, and maybe ill get a good roomate at UNM and a job nearby and my life will finally feel like its all going in one direction. for now i just feel like ive been incredibly selfish. and i wish i could say just how sorry i am. and that now that i know what ive been doing wrong im going to make damn sure to fix it. it hurts to know that ive done things that have hurt him. but i guess all there is left to say is that im really looking forward to the future. and i know that not everything in our lives is going to be ok, but that we will be. and i really believe that. and that makes me happy, because being with him makes me happy. more than anything.