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im shocked and hurt and confused. because of all the horrible things i apparantly did that day that i came back to my room and cried because of how mean you were to me. and im not even going to try to make it better because i know that no matter what i say or how much i try to explain the way i feel you will never try to see it any other way then your way. you probably wont even read this, or even if you do you probably wouldnt talk to me about it anyway so i dont even know why im writing this. i just thought i was a friend. i was trying really hard to just be a good friend. and all you did was be mean and cruel and horrible in return. and i dont know why i expected anything different because thats what you do with all you other friends. you bitch about them to everyone that isnt them. ive seen and heard you do it so many times so i dont know why i thought i would be different. i just dont understand how you can be so mean to people all the time. i really dont. and it hurts to know that someone you care about can just throw you away like that. you didnt even bother to wait until i wasnt there so you could complain about me to someone else, you were just blatantly mean to me. youd never done that to me before, so i was willing to put up with all the other bad stuff because youd put up with all my bad stuff too and because thats what friends do. but no, i cant believe youd do that and then go and complain about how mean i was to YOU, when you were the one who made ME cry. and yes, you made me cry. i want you to know that so that maybe youll realise that you hurt people. then maybe you can stop doing it.