Its been a long time
wow .... L.J.... how i have missed thee.
But i am back! Less creative than ever before, but its somewhere to write down all my feelings without scaring my friends too much with all the emotions...seen as i never share anything with anyone apart from on the odd occation where my feelings are too strong and they have to pop out because i cant hold them in any longer.
Like yesterday with the bleedin ref in the Rugby match against Bradford! GRRRRR! he needed a good kick up the arse, but im over that one now!
I found out yesterday that my ex is seeing someone new... im friends with the girl and she's lovely...and i definetely dont like him anymore, so i should be happy for them really... but i just think its the thought that HE moved on first you know? and i always have to be better than everyone else.... and i duno... i just guess i wanted him to still pine after me or something :S ahhh i dont know. And i want to be friends with him, cuz he's a great guy! i mean i wouldn't have ever liked him if he wasn't a truly great person to be with! but it seems he doesnt want that and he wants to move on. This exact problem was in a magazine i was reading last night, and the writer said you shouldnt try if he doesnt want it, and you should forget about him and move on like he has done because it will only make you get over him slower....and i was thinking...well i am over him... but am i? am i really? i dont think so.
And then i find out this guy i like doesnt actually like me although he said he did.... and that just made me upset because he says all these things and hes in love with someone else...who ALSO happens to be a friend of mine... then we argued because she said she couldnt help it, and i wasnt blaming her she got the wrong end of the stick... but if i think about choices... id rather have her as a friend millions more.
Its kind of really annoying me i have no-one. i seem to have millions of male friends, but theres no-one that i am closer with.... theres like no potential if you get me... but i am known as being a laugh and like a lad anyways, so people just probably dont see me in that light.... ahhh who cares? why am i moaning. i should just enjoy being single n have fun!!
but... thats what i do...and its no fun anymore.
Ahhhh the woes of my love life....well non existant love life should i say.
See i told you this was a place to moan!! Now i dont have to put my friends through agony... because i know they wont care! haha, i wouldnt.
But i am back! Less creative than ever before, but its somewhere to write down all my feelings without scaring my friends too much with all the emotions...seen as i never share anything with anyone apart from on the odd occation where my feelings are too strong and they have to pop out because i cant hold them in any longer.
Like yesterday with the bleedin ref in the Rugby match against Bradford! GRRRRR! he needed a good kick up the arse, but im over that one now!
I found out yesterday that my ex is seeing someone new... im friends with the girl and she's lovely...and i definetely dont like him anymore, so i should be happy for them really... but i just think its the thought that HE moved on first you know? and i always have to be better than everyone else.... and i duno... i just guess i wanted him to still pine after me or something :S ahhh i dont know. And i want to be friends with him, cuz he's a great guy! i mean i wouldn't have ever liked him if he wasn't a truly great person to be with! but it seems he doesnt want that and he wants to move on. This exact problem was in a magazine i was reading last night, and the writer said you shouldnt try if he doesnt want it, and you should forget about him and move on like he has done because it will only make you get over him slower....and i was thinking...well i am over him... but am i? am i really? i dont think so.
And then i find out this guy i like doesnt actually like me although he said he did.... and that just made me upset because he says all these things and hes in love with someone else...who ALSO happens to be a friend of mine... then we argued because she said she couldnt help it, and i wasnt blaming her she got the wrong end of the stick... but if i think about choices... id rather have her as a friend millions more.
Its kind of really annoying me i have no-one. i seem to have millions of male friends, but theres no-one that i am closer with.... theres like no potential if you get me... but i am known as being a laugh and like a lad anyways, so people just probably dont see me in that light.... ahhh who cares? why am i moaning. i should just enjoy being single n have fun!!
but... thats what i do...and its no fun anymore.
Ahhhh the woes of my love life....well non existant love life should i say.
See i told you this was a place to moan!! Now i dont have to put my friends through agony... because i know they wont care! haha, i wouldnt.