Decisions, decisions
So I'm sitting here in the lab trying to decide if I just want to go home or not. I sort of don't feel well, probably as a result of little sleep, little food, and the extreme warmth in here. I really don't feel like volunteering today, but since it's my last day volunteering in the ED, I feel especially obligated to go. On the other hand, if I really am sick, then I definitely shouldn't be in the ED. But are my symptoms manifested only because I don't feel like going? I'm not sure. I know I'll feel bad if I don't go, regardless of how I feel. I just feel tired and weak like I need a nap and some lunch. But I hate that irresponsible feeling I know I'll get if I don't go. I know I'll feel bad about it. I try to justify going home by telling myself that they don't need me in the ED that much, that all I do is clean toys and stuff, yet every time I'm there I'm always told how much I'm appreciated. And since I didn't see Kitty last week to tell her that I was changing my volunteering time, it'd be sort of rude to not go this week. I mean, obviously, she'd be told but it would just be weird for me to all of a sudden leave like that. That's sort of how it was when I quit my job at the library, and I really didn't like it. Of course, this would be a little different, and I'm sure that Kitty would be more than understanding because she's awesome like that. I just don't want to go home and then suddenly feel fine and have just completely skipped out on my responsibilities. I'd feel like I lied about it. Sometimes it sucks to be so moral.
Okay, so I've decided. I'm going home. But I'm going to eat something and then lie down and do my take home exam tonight. I still feel bad though.
On the bright side, after tomorrow's lab the only day I have to come to school is Tuesday and then I'm off until March 28. And then, I only have ten weeks left until summer break! I heart summer.