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hahah. so today was the family traditional x-mas eve thing at my grandmas, but the thing is, this year, it was at my uncle house. now, my uncle is my favorite realitive, which is weird because both my sisters, my mom, and all them hate him. with passion. i was so pissed it wasnt at my grandmas. just becuase. i mean, my uncles house is small, and yeah. so only me my brother and my dad went, because of reasons already said. well, i hated it right from teh get-go. no carpet. WTF NO CARPET. man, i never knew carpet-less houses bugged me taht much. how the fuck were we suppose to get that homely feelng when the damn house had no carpet. argh, it annoyed me. anyhow, time went on, adn then it came to presents time. now, at my grandmas, it was tradition, that richard, my uncle, calls everyones name and they go and open their gift. well, with all these people that I DID NOT KNOW there, they all went and grabbed their gifts and were goign to open them. hahah. man, i went crazy. i started just saying, tryign to keep my calm, "put them back!!" and i literally grabbed my brothres gift and put it under the tree, and i was bout to go for a complete strangres. and then tehy started opening them,a dni ran into the bathroom. i was pissed and could feel the lump in my throat. i want to say it was from the fact i was bout to cry, but it was also my pride, lol. no kidding. i was gogin to swallow my pride, well, not pride, but like, swallow my ways, swallow tradition, and go on with thsi fucking bull shit. fuck it. and my uncle came over, after my dad did, and was all oh come on, and i said it right then, haha, it just came out!! "IM GOING TO PUSH YOU DOWN THAT MOUNTAIN IN A FWE DAYS WHEN WE GO!!!" they made a joke outta it, but i was serious. hahahahah. ima loser. i hated it. everyone knew i hated it. hahahahahha. i never knew tradition meant that much to me. fuck. oh and we sat around the table and talked bout getting high. yeah, ppl were saying their favorite munchy food, where they got high,when they grew it, where tehy got it, hwo high they were one time, and my grandmas friend was all "i hated it" and my grandma was like "i loved it" i was like OMG. hahahahahah. FUCKING CRAZY ASS SHIT RIGHT THURR.