bugger.
well i was suppose to be going home tomorrow but i can't. Evan is really upset. i don't blame him. he's not the only one upset. i want to go home. i really do. i hate making him upset but there is nothing i can do. so he is out with his family mad at me. and I'm here with my family feeling really bad. so what to do? i am going to be home on Wednesday so thats something. he feels really weird that we aren't spending the holidays together. he's going to Florida again for Christmas. he already has his ticket down there. and i'd feel weird and so we he if one of us didn't get to spend Christmas with our families. so when it comes to the holidays if we were to pick one place to go we'd be together which would be wonderful but then one of us would be missing out on our parents. it would be $598 for me to get down to Florida. *sigh* I don't know. i just don't want him to be sad and disappointed. i feel a bit like a failure as a wife right now. which is really stupid but thats how i feel. i'm going to go watch tv and hope that he calls me when they get back from dinner.