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my grandfather, pop pop, died last tuesday, february 23. i flew home the next day for the viewings and the funeral. he was old and he suffered tremendously at the end of his life, but i-- i am sort or hearbroken over the loss of him. it's hard for me to talk about. all week i've been thinking about the one time he offered to play catch with me in the backyard. i was always looking for someone to throw me a softball. anyway, i was about 14 and he was about 70, and i was shocked when he asked. i ran inside to get my glove.
my granparents were married for 59 years, 60 this spring. when we left him at the cemetary, my grandmother said "bye bye now, we'll see you soon."
he's 18 in this picture.
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i am terribly behind on my school work. today is my day off, and i had planned to work all day, but i just haven't been able to bring myself to do much of anything. part of me thinks it's ok because this is the first minute i've had completely to myself in over a week. i could use some good news.
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Beyond Time
I am not concerned at all with golden age of those pines
Or the white time of carnation
Or the time of the dust on the highway
Or the time of passing clouds.
Whether I lived an age or an instant loses it importance.
It is enough to glance into the eye of a sunflower,
To grind thyme in your hand,
Any scent in the infinitive suffices,
Any of the usually unnoticed things of the earth,
Suddenly perceived in such a way
That their shape with eyelids not quite closed
Denies transience (of water, of clouds, of man).
Mieczyskaw Jastrun
translated by Czeslaw Milosz
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my granparents were married for 59 years, 60 this spring. when we left him at the cemetary, my grandmother said "bye bye now, we'll see you soon."
he's 18 in this picture.
***
i am terribly behind on my school work. today is my day off, and i had planned to work all day, but i just haven't been able to bring myself to do much of anything. part of me thinks it's ok because this is the first minute i've had completely to myself in over a week. i could use some good news.
***
Beyond Time
I am not concerned at all with golden age of those pines
Or the white time of carnation
Or the time of the dust on the highway
Or the time of passing clouds.
Whether I lived an age or an instant loses it importance.
It is enough to glance into the eye of a sunflower,
To grind thyme in your hand,
Any scent in the infinitive suffices,
Any of the usually unnoticed things of the earth,
Suddenly perceived in such a way
That their shape with eyelids not quite closed
Denies transience (of water, of clouds, of man).
Mieczyskaw Jastrun
translated by Czeslaw Milosz
.