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sometimes we've been wondering what the point was, to keep going as of late.
likely, this is just our allergies (seemingly to everything) making us unable to not feel like shit.
citrus, corn, dust, pollen.
out of antihistamines, out of psych meds, out of hormones, out of antacids so we can't even take decent doses of ibuprofen. felt like we were going to fall over most of today.
we have no problem trying to get work and work, but...we're not sure we can _do_ most of the things that keept getting snappily and stupidly suggested by, for example, our ex-family. retail? likely a path to another fireing due to panic, or just nonhireing due to not being able to deal with people. or be on our feet more than maybe an hour at a time most days. this isn't to say we fall over, but rather that the pain our feet, knees, and hips start producing becomes rather excruciating after a time. And pain of the sort which indicates damage is happening, and swelling happens, and even more pain begins due to that.
while most pain wasn't an issue for a decent bit of time, it seems our psych meds let us do some perceptual tricks to help with it. they're gone now, and we've been off for a month or more, and it's proven to us, at least, that we found something we should be taking regularly.
bit of a catch22.
anyhow, going back to laying down now.
likely, this is just our allergies (seemingly to everything) making us unable to not feel like shit.
citrus, corn, dust, pollen.
out of antihistamines, out of psych meds, out of hormones, out of antacids so we can't even take decent doses of ibuprofen. felt like we were going to fall over most of today.
we have no problem trying to get work and work, but...we're not sure we can _do_ most of the things that keept getting snappily and stupidly suggested by, for example, our ex-family. retail? likely a path to another fireing due to panic, or just nonhireing due to not being able to deal with people. or be on our feet more than maybe an hour at a time most days. this isn't to say we fall over, but rather that the pain our feet, knees, and hips start producing becomes rather excruciating after a time. And pain of the sort which indicates damage is happening, and swelling happens, and even more pain begins due to that.
while most pain wasn't an issue for a decent bit of time, it seems our psych meds let us do some perceptual tricks to help with it. they're gone now, and we've been off for a month or more, and it's proven to us, at least, that we found something we should be taking regularly.
bit of a catch22.
anyhow, going back to laying down now.