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My Epic journey through Europe:
I am not sure what the meaning of it will be for me. But so far I have discovered that I am not investing correctly. I need to flow into the clarity that one gains from effortlessly working towards goals and self evolution. I have no idea how I am going to get to this end result of putting my needs and ideas above those around me (as I have been raised to put the needs of others over my own). However I am willing to try. My plan is to do all things with intention and a greater focus will evolve slowly. This method is the only one I see that may work for me and it is the only one that I believe will be a long lasting solution.
What does this mean? This means that if I do something it needs to be done with intention. If I talk to a guy I like I need to try to speak with someone who will value me and who's time and emotions I value. If I work on a project I need to fulfill it and all the details of it to completion as much as possible and continue to hit all the points of that project until it is fulfilled. If I am at a dinner with a friend having a wonderful meal and a glass of wine I need to be present in that moment and not worried about my phone or what else could be going on elsewhere. If I want something I go and get it. If I do something I do it all the way. If I believe in something I believe in it all the way. It really sums up to respect, determination and winning. I love winning...and ironically, although you would not see it the way I am living now, I love to live a life of purpose. So those are the basic goals here: valuing myself and my time, respecting others, accomplishing tasks and fulfilling goals. All of these lofty things can be attacked one step at a time and will lead me to living a life of purpose again.
I am hoping that they will also guide me toward a very narrow focus, because at the moment I have general ideas about what I want from life. Yet these ideas, these dreams of my heart are not set up in attainable steps because there is no such thing as a road map to life. Everyday something unexpected will happen and we have to adapt to that situation and continue onward and forward, whilst clinging to the dreams, the hopes and the ideas that guide us.
I am not sure what the meaning of it will be for me. But so far I have discovered that I am not investing correctly. I need to flow into the clarity that one gains from effortlessly working towards goals and self evolution. I have no idea how I am going to get to this end result of putting my needs and ideas above those around me (as I have been raised to put the needs of others over my own). However I am willing to try. My plan is to do all things with intention and a greater focus will evolve slowly. This method is the only one I see that may work for me and it is the only one that I believe will be a long lasting solution.
What does this mean? This means that if I do something it needs to be done with intention. If I talk to a guy I like I need to try to speak with someone who will value me and who's time and emotions I value. If I work on a project I need to fulfill it and all the details of it to completion as much as possible and continue to hit all the points of that project until it is fulfilled. If I am at a dinner with a friend having a wonderful meal and a glass of wine I need to be present in that moment and not worried about my phone or what else could be going on elsewhere. If I want something I go and get it. If I do something I do it all the way. If I believe in something I believe in it all the way. It really sums up to respect, determination and winning. I love winning...and ironically, although you would not see it the way I am living now, I love to live a life of purpose. So those are the basic goals here: valuing myself and my time, respecting others, accomplishing tasks and fulfilling goals. All of these lofty things can be attacked one step at a time and will lead me to living a life of purpose again.
I am hoping that they will also guide me toward a very narrow focus, because at the moment I have general ideas about what I want from life. Yet these ideas, these dreams of my heart are not set up in attainable steps because there is no such thing as a road map to life. Everyday something unexpected will happen and we have to adapt to that situation and continue onward and forward, whilst clinging to the dreams, the hopes and the ideas that guide us.