men and money
What does one do with love when it conflicts with career choices?
It seems like the answer is obvious and easy--career right? Well sure it is, except that you feel empty without being able to be close to someone you love who is quite special after all. It seems like life never cuts anyone a break--no one can have everything they want for too long--maybe just a moment here or there but thats it--back to the grind after that. There is no easy way out of this predicament. Sadly my boyfriend is really being rather silly about everything and quite backward. He claims to be so liberal and open to new ideas, but in reality a woman is his property and he only wants her to do various approved things and my choices are rather unapproved. But who said that I was comfortable doing normal stuff and staying down and oppressed in the workplace? Im not and I would have hoped that my Democrat in the bedroom and the courtroom and on the political scene would say "take over the world baby--ill be right here by your side". Like I said there is no perfect scenario, no perfect relationship--but damn this one sure seemed that way for quite some time.
With Pie and myself we tend to fixate on a particular issue and go crazy over it and disagree and fight and the whole world is over, until we both see that its really no big deal after all. I have told him in the midst of many of these sorts of fights that they are nothing more than a colossal waste of my life and time but for "he who cannot be wrong" that doesnt seem to phase him. He is older and wiser and more educated and experienced and he knows better than I do in his opinion I suppose. In some cases, well most really (which is quite unlike me), I do defer to him, but I cannot and will not on this one. It has meant too much to me to have this kind of freedom--to really build something for myself for a change instead of being the minion of another. He will have to understand or lose me in the end.