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Alrighty let me up date everyone on whats going on...well i cant stand living with my aunt anymore so i called my mom in tears and told her that i wanted to come home so that was an option but then she told me that my grandma was having surgery on the 19th and that i could go to New Mexico and help my grandpa and help take care of my grandma so i decided that is what i wanted to do but at first i was just going to take a little break and be gone for at the most a week but then i told my aunt that i wanted to go and she flipped out and told me that if i go i don't come back, so that was like a big shock to me so i re-thought my choices and i decided that i was going to go ahead and go to my grandparents and last night my aunt asked me what my final decision was and i told her that i haden't changed my mind at all and that i still wanted to go and then she told me that since that was my decision i needed to leave right away so i made my plans and i'm leaving hear tonight and i get to new mexico at 10:40 in the morning tomorrow its almost an 11 hour bus ride...i'm going to get so bored.....but oh well...thats the choice that i decided to make i guess....
But in the long run i think i'll be happier...there is no reason that i should feel like i need to settle down somewhere my mom pointed out that i'm supposed to be on an adventure and thats what i'm looking at this as...an adventure...and if New Mexico isn't for me i'll go to my aunts house in Arizona and see how i like it there and then it will be easier to see my brother which will be great...i don't know i'm happy with the choice that i've made and i don't feel like i should feel bad about my decision because my aunt is the one that told me that she didn't want me to come back if i left....am i totally wrong to feel like this? well i guess i'm going to go i have a few people to go and say goodbye to today so i will update everyone in a few days.
But in the long run i think i'll be happier...there is no reason that i should feel like i need to settle down somewhere my mom pointed out that i'm supposed to be on an adventure and thats what i'm looking at this as...an adventure...and if New Mexico isn't for me i'll go to my aunts house in Arizona and see how i like it there and then it will be easier to see my brother which will be great...i don't know i'm happy with the choice that i've made and i don't feel like i should feel bad about my decision because my aunt is the one that told me that she didn't want me to come back if i left....am i totally wrong to feel like this? well i guess i'm going to go i have a few people to go and say goodbye to today so i will update everyone in a few days.