Feelings for others
My wife has said the only problem she has with my newest relationship is that it was sprung on her so fast. I went from having mentioned my current GF in passing to her becoming my current GF without any preamble. I have explained to my wife that while I had the desire for a relationship with this person all along, I hadn't entertained any hope of it coming to pass. Still, because of the difficulties I am now encountering in trying to get this relationship to flourish, I believe I need to explain my feelings for those women at work with whom I would consider a non-work relationship.
In no particular order:
N: N is bright, cheerful, intelligent, and unfortunately Mormon. She does have her share of culture problems as well, despite being lds in Utah. To be perfectly honest, my physical attraction toward N is mostly the lure of the exotic.
C: I have harbored an attraction for C since the day we met. She is in desperate need of sexual healing, but there are political-work issues which prevent me from offering the help she needs.
J: Young, rash, impulsive--both good and bad. J recently had a Mormon wedding and is chaffing in her marital vows, but is devoted to her husband.
KA: Unique, exotic, pleasant, and understanding, KA is someone I would love to get to know better just as a friend. Though I wouldn't be opposed to a physical liaison there if she needed it, I have no real desire in that direction.
KE: My feelings for this one cannot be summed up. She deserves an entire posting to herself.
KR: I think I wear my feelings for KR on my sleeve, so to speak. I expect everyone who is entitled to already knows my feelings there, and I can't go much further without violating her privacy.
B: Though B no longer works with me, the fact that I fear our feelings toward each other may be the source of much misunderstanding means I need to clarify myself there. I still love and desire B. I have just been given the impression that there is nothing coming back. I had to abandon my hopes here because others needed my attention and she could not give me a reason to deny them.
In no particular order:
N: N is bright, cheerful, intelligent, and unfortunately Mormon. She does have her share of culture problems as well, despite being lds in Utah. To be perfectly honest, my physical attraction toward N is mostly the lure of the exotic.
C: I have harbored an attraction for C since the day we met. She is in desperate need of sexual healing, but there are political-work issues which prevent me from offering the help she needs.
J: Young, rash, impulsive--both good and bad. J recently had a Mormon wedding and is chaffing in her marital vows, but is devoted to her husband.
KA: Unique, exotic, pleasant, and understanding, KA is someone I would love to get to know better just as a friend. Though I wouldn't be opposed to a physical liaison there if she needed it, I have no real desire in that direction.
KE: My feelings for this one cannot be summed up. She deserves an entire posting to herself.
KR: I think I wear my feelings for KR on my sleeve, so to speak. I expect everyone who is entitled to already knows my feelings there, and I can't go much further without violating her privacy.
B: Though B no longer works with me, the fact that I fear our feelings toward each other may be the source of much misunderstanding means I need to clarify myself there. I still love and desire B. I have just been given the impression that there is nothing coming back. I had to abandon my hopes here because others needed my attention and she could not give me a reason to deny them.